My classes are getting interesting, past the boring intro and into things that actually make me think. We had a buddhist and islamic speaker in my religion class that were both really cool, make you think, wonder what you agree with kinda speakers. Thats such a better way to learn about differences then through a book. And we are gonna have a lot more, i think she is good at understanding we learn better through real life then just hearing. In my philosophy class we're now reading a book called Guns, Germs and Steal and its about how environment effects the development of cultures, thats pretty cool. I like english, as always and have a problem of talking too much, i just think the subject is really interesting and have a lot of thoughts. Any my sociology teacher is boring but I like the subject. I've been thinking about maybe doing a sociology and english double major. I like those subjects and I think they both study a broad range of things that I am interested in. I'm just not exactly sure what I'd do with it, but people say don't think about that cause you'll either go to grad school or just end up doing some job that may or may not relate to your degree, instead you should do what you love. So...we'll see. Seems like a big decision to choose that major but I've been thinking about it for about a week now, haha, thats a long time for me and my major thoughts.
I've been doing more stuff with SCCAP (Santa Clara Community Action Programs) and i really like it. We did this thing called Kids Club last week where you go to this like house/playground and play with kids who have a parent in prison, help them with their homework and just hang out with them. Its really fun cause they really need you and enjoy your presence. Plus always and forever I just am amazed by the light in the eyes of all children, the world is so much more exciting to them. I watched the girl I tutored sound out words and say them out loud with more pride and excitement than you would ever hear an adult say a word with. It's great, I really enjoy it and am gonna try to go every week. I also went to San Fran the last two Friday's to do Project Open Hand which delivers meals to terminally ill people in the tenderloin and we make sandwiches and pass them out to the homeless. It is an amazing experience seeing into the lives of these people, helping them and becoming comfortable in a place of such strife. The second week was even more rich than the first and I can imagine it will continue like that. The people from school that do both these programs are really awesome which makes it that much better....I love it, everything I wanted is here.
I went to get ice cream (frozen yogurt actually-its a fad here) with Berkeley today, my friend I met through Molly who lives a couple floors up. We haven't hung out forever and it was so nice to spend sometime together. We talked about everything, we have some sort of deeper Colorado connection and just get each other, its great. We talked a little about how my group of friends is super tight and maybe I need to branch out a little and meet some new people. It was so good to get that in my head because its true, there are so many awesome people here and I don't wanna miss out on any awesome friendship. But I have to say my group of friends is amazing, I love them so dearly and we have had some really fun nights just staying in lately which is great.
On the other hand, I miss my crew at home. This weekend is Tiff's birthday and Zachy called me last night when they were all together...Dave, Elyse, Chels, Tiff, Zachy and even Will. A few of them were on speaker phone and I just cried, I felt so bad cause they were having a blast but it just hit me how far away I was and made me so sad I couldn't be there. Then I remembered that I'm here, and as soon as I get home they will still be there and it will be as great as ever and I was better. I love them so much and miss them tons but I know, they, unlike most other people, will always always be a my family and in my world no matter where our paths lead us. Tiff and I talked about her maybe coming to visit, who knows if it will happen but it would be sooo sooo great! And I REALLY hope Zachy and Ese and anyone else in the whole world can come visit in the spring when we aren't gonna have Thanksgiving break to look forward to which I seriously CANNOT wait for.
Today I really wanted to go for a bike ride, for the first time I really missed just having open space and looking at a beautiful view that no one created and that was right out my window everyday. Don't get me wrong its beautiful here and I love it to death but its such a different beauty than home. The scene at home is something I cant explain and miss so very much. I love that place, I really do.
There is something else sooo taking over my head but I dunno what I wanna say about it. I wanna remember the good not the bad, I wanna be friends, make peace, be mature. I dont understand the male species, seriously I dont get it. Its been driving me crazy lately but its getting better, I have to do not think. Thinking just does me NO good and despite what I might think I always feel better when I do...so thats the plan from now on. Ill do what I can and if I dont get some response well at least I tried....
I wish I had a clue what I was doing tonight, everyone is gone, which has actually been nice kinda having a day to do my own thing. Ha, no matter what we do it will be fun though, it always is. Last night we attempted to sleep with 6 people in one bad, that was an epic failure..obviously. Crazies. I love it, SO SO SO SO MUCH! I just have to remember, and try to sleep more, I've still being having a really hard time sleeping. Cause when I think about the hear and the now I am in love with it, its when I think about other stuff that drives me crazy. :), back to some hw, I have sooo much!
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