Dont Worry 'Bout A Thing

oh life. your a funny one.
im laying in bed drinking chamomile tea and blogging. this is one of my most favorite things to do. tea is such a wonderful thing. mom made me tea all the time my whole life, its a comfort thing, and a peace thing and a calming thing, and just plain yummy. i love it. (note to self, buy more tea!)
i just came from the gym and walked under the moon and with the palm trees and smell of rain surrounding me and little wormies covering the ground. I worry about those guys, most people dont walk and look at the ground and watch out for them, they get stepped on a lot. There were no snails out tonight, must be cause the worms are night crawlers, snails are off preparing for the next day :).
Point is, life is beautiful. A really beautiful confusing crazy mess that I love dearly in all of its ups and downs.
Heres some awesome lyrics to feel and listen to


Ever been misunderstood, misused, or misled
Ever knocked on the sky
and had it fall on your head
well, don't worry 'bout it, don't worry
Ever lost your luggage, your marbles,
your house
Or found yourself in bed with Uncle Sam or Mickey Mouse
Ever been accused of murder on Music Row
Or caught in morning traffic when you
really gotta go - Oh no!
[Chorus]
Life is funny, life's a mess
Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing
Don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it
Life gets sticky, life can bruise
Sometimes you win sometimes your losing
No matter what it brings
Don't worry 'bout a thing

Ever sat yourself down when the
seat is all wet
Or see your "ex" sucking face with
a little brunette
Don't worry 'bout it, no don't worry
Ever lost your religion, ever lost your
best friend
Or found your last record in the bargain bin
Or been stuck in a divorce like crazy glue
Or scraped someone else's gum off the
bottom of your shoe - Boo hoo!

Mmm- "Dont Worry 'Bout a Thing" by SheDaisy
Funny, as I was walking home from the gym I was thinking about all this. About how life happens. And you just gotta roll with it and I thought about all this head and heart and do and be stuff. And how dang confused I find myself sometimes. And how people come in and out and just totally effect you in the most wonderful and the most complicated ways. I spend lots of time wondering what to do, do i pour my heart out tell everyone everything I really feel, do I let life work its self out, to I play it safe and keep my mouth shut...I never know.  And I get really caught up in it.  Its hard to know how to nourish relationships and yourself all at the same time. Cause there are so many layers to all of it. So many layers to you, SO MANY LAYERS TO ME, maybe one of my biggest challenges is meshing my layers. And there are just lots of layers to life. Holding onto people, figuring out how they fit, where you mesh, where you don't, how life plays a role in relationships sometimes just not letting them happen. It's so confusing. But I try really hard to believe things happen for a reason, yet then there is the whole idea of creating your destiny and its a fine line between pushing too hard and worrying and wondering and just letting go and letting life happen. I think its a matter of finding a balance. If only my head could let go long enough to let things figure themselves out.  Often times I get caught up, confused, and try to do something to make things better then Im confused all over again.  
But when I was walking to the gym, taking in the beauty of life I had to remind my self of these lyrics, to take life as it comes, to do my best and to keep smiling and holding onto the sunshine. Cause really what more can you do. 
Life is really great. All the time. And I am one of the luckiest people in the world. 


Liv will be here tomorrow. I have been dreaming up a serious adventure. And extending our zip car rental into the wee hours of the night. I am so excited.
Kelsey also called last night and is coming out for her spring break. She'll be with me for two nights, boy is that exciting. Some serious RYLA in my life and finally sometime for Kels and I to talk about all the life we feel and live and wanna live. One of the fam is coming to me. Im very very excited for that as well.
Also, as if I'm not lucky enough. Zachy called today, they are gonna come visit over their spring break...wow, freaking awesome!
Its pretty cool to live in an awesome place that even though its far away people wanna come visit, exciting.


 I was missing home a little today.  Best friend needs me. And ski joring is this weekend.  Main street covered in snow and people, crew time at Zachy's, Provin Grounds hot cocoa and blueberry muffin, mommy, that big wonderful bed, the stars, and the snow covered mountains under blue sky are really callin my name.  First time I've missed home this quarter, I got a while til Ill be there again, i don't actually like that very much. I mean I just miss it there. And although I know Im gonna go a little crazy being there Im really looking forward to the summer there. So...Leadville, Im thinking of you. Soak it all in for me those of you who are there enjoyin the tradition, the beauty, the little life we've created. :)


One more thing. Im really looking forward to Spring Break. Life is REALLY crazy busy right now, starting last week through finals.  Projects, papers, tests, visits, group presentations, meetings, applications, all sorts of things I'm running around like a crazy person (just how I like it) and getting to Spring Break, running away with my favorite girls and just relaxing and exploring is going to be absolutely fantastic. Im so excited :)


Alright its bedtime. I love you world and life and every single person who has been a part in making this life what it is. Good night!