I always fantasize about living here for a summer. I almost said used to. But I still do today I told Dad "I'm still not giving up on the idea of living here someday" Even though people rent it and silly stuff like that now. I dream of long days on the water. Swimming and running in the michigan love. I dream of fires. I dream of friends and family visiting. Of entertaining myself with books all summer long. Of summer love on the lake. Of late nights under the stars. Of cooking veggies and fish on the grill. Eating fresh fruit and baking coffee cakes all summer long. Some day.. someday I tell ya.
Its just SO good.
We have been water skiing and reading (SO MUCH READING) and playing cards and sun tanning (ok sun burning) and eating delicious food and just relaxing our butts off. And I just love it so much. Its so beautiful.
We dropped off Kylie and Jesse at the airport tonight. Sad to see them leave, and sad to see the end of another Michigan trip coming up too soon.
Dad and I just went out and took it all in for a while. The lake is like glass. The sun is setting. Everything is perfect. And I was just overwhelmed with emotion. Joy, gratitude, excitement, understanding and a little bit of sadness. But mostly just memories and thoughtfulness.
Im gonna leave here pretty soon. But I know that I'll be back. And this has been one of the more stable pieces of my life. Here every summer. No matter the divorce, the alcohol, the drugs, the loss, the money problems, the changes.
The cottage and the lake were always always here.
Its the simple happy memories here that I share with dad and mom that make me feel close to both of them when Im here. Its the knowledge that I will bring my kids here someday. Thats the comfort and love the seeps out of this place. The love of a lifetime of ups and downs and changes...and one place that stays consistent to come play and relax and love.. always and forever :)
Dad and I were talking about our soar arms... we decided that it must be one heck of a good time if you have soar arms and sunburned skin. Oopppssiiesss (I successfully got fried yesterday)
But it has been quite the perfect vacation. You can tell by the sunburn and soar arms, the books and hats and crackers stacked up on the table. Wet towels and swimsuits laying out. Cameras, sun glasses, life jackets, inside and outside games to play with. Perfect :)
And guess what, we still have a day and a half left. To fill with reading and sunshine and relaxing and hammocks and swimming across the lake and maybe even a couple more water skiing rounds (even though its illegal with just the two of us) But.. man is this place wonderful. Every single time :)
I have also been letting my little day dreamer of a mind go at full speed. Seriously I AM A DREAMER. And I have been in fantasy land ALL over the world this last week. Dreaming of being back at school. Of our trip out. Of my last few weeks at home. Of studying abroad and traveling before hand with Kali. Of living here or there, of nannying, of all the possibilities of next summer. Of life.. so much life. I like to day dream and night dream and just dream. It makes me excited for life. And motivates me to go out there and just explore the options cause boy are there a lot :)
Back to reading. Today Im in a little town in Pakistan in Three Cups of Tea :) Yesterday was Sweden in The Girl With The Dragon Tatoo and a I bought one about Germany and one about Heaven for the next couple days :)
Dream on.. I sure am :)
XOXOXOX
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