takin in all there is to love

My big comfy bed awaits me. So does the coffee shop in too few hours. But.. my little head and heart have so much to share. Um.. as always


Last night I got something in the mail from school. And i got so excited.  Like when I got my acceptance letter and the letters about when I get to move in and my roomate and all that jazz. I love that place so dang much just its name on an envelope excites me. I thought it'd be something about money or moving in or something logisticish... nope a letter of congratulations cause I made the Dean's List. I like that. I like that that envelope reminded me of getting in and the letter reminded me of how being there is just right. And that I love it and am doing what I should be there.  Its ok that my parents arent jumping for joy about it cause in my head its just one more piece of motivation.


The response to my excitement was frustrating.  They are removed. And I wish they could understand the importance.  And give me a reason to come to them with news like that.  And for a minute I was upset and then I realized the only reason I even know how I want them to respond is because there are people in my life that do respond that way.  I know what I wish my family was because of my RYLA family and for that I am so so so unbelievable lucky.


I sent a random message today to someone who inspires the crap out of me.  And got the most wonderful message back. Only in RYLA land. And I love that. I want all life and land and family to be like RYLA family. And i think people might be sick of hearing it. But Im gonna live like I live in that land and maybe a couple people will catch on :)


I also had a reminded from my most wonderful soul sister about having a good attitude and choosing be in love with life. Every minute. Its so easy to wake up in the morning and feel like staying in bed all day. And easy to not want to go to work.  But its also easy to be so happy to be awake and alive and going to work. And to text someone that will remind you and put on good music and change my attitude. Her one reminder totally made my day better and I just love that. I love her. I love her for reminding me. I love people who keep me in check and make me better and show me how to live how I am supposed to. 


I just did such a wonderful thing for my soul.  I worked both places today and fit in time to finish my debrief about camp (sooo many ideas bubbling and exploding in my head) and chat with the Summit RYLA crew about our presentation Tues and see Dave and Tiff and work on our roadtrip to CALIFORNIA! Um... exciting!!!!!


Then tonight I decided to take my pups for a walk. At 9:30 through town.  I grew up being a little sketched out by this town.  Playing guy with the gun on the tramp anytime anyone walked by and I guess kinda not trusting people.  I dunno why. Ignorance I guess. But it stuck with me. And this summer when i've wanted to go outside at night I've chose not too cause Im a little scared. But tonight I took my dogs and we went. I wanted to look at the stars. I wanted to move and be outside.  And it was such a wonderful decision.


We just walked. And took random turns. And took in the stars and the mountains and the mind boggling peacefulness that is this town. I saw it again from a whole new point of view. Peaceful, quiet, safe, and like it was mine to go for late night walks in.  I laid in the road and looked at the stars, swung on some swings and walked by some younger kids saying good night with a kiss.  It was so good.  The stars totally blew me away and the sillhouettes of the mountains was like a painting. And the one cloud in the sky was lit up time and time again by lightning. Man it was cool. And inspiring and peaceful and so feel good.  And I wanted someone to be with me but at the same time I love the fact that I can do that by myself and be content.  There were times in my life that I always had to be with people.. and I love that I have learned to enjoy my time alone. And to spend time with my thoughts and my trusty pups and to learn about myself and listen to myself. And that I can trust this little town and enjoy it for all that it is. And that life is so dang good :)


I talked to Zachy and Kels and my bro when I got home. And felt my heart. And again was reminded of how in love with life I am :)


So good. Go do something with you. For you.


Michigan in two days. And til then, two doubles, night with Catie, Rotary meeting... oh and maybe I should pack :)


Hope your takin in all there is to see :) xoxoxox