sparknotes

I havent wrote for quite sometime. For lots of reasons. There has been lots of life happening. So I will give some spark notes. Starting with tonight.


I just went for a run at 11:00 pm in shorts and a windbreaker, its February. It had just rained so the air felt fresh and was filled with the smell of rain, there was a little bit of mist on my shoulders and I was alone with my music and nature. Granted I live in the middle of the city I still felt alone with nature. The wind blowing, the palm trees swaying, the little snails and worms that we're out with the rain, the clouds and the moon shining through.  It was really peaceful.


My mom was here all weekend and it was great to have her and also somewhat exhausting. We hung out all weekend with Jes and Kylie and it was lots of fun. It was nice to have her here. And in all honesty its nice to be home with my friends again in my own little world. 
So now Im gonna go from a couple weeks back.


I may or may not have had a small crisis in my head. Of who am I and what am doing and wanting to do with my life. All of a sudden I was really questioning me, maybe more than I ever have before. I spent my whole life dealing with other peoples problems and all of a sudden it seemed like me was a little more confusing than I thought. It was good though, really made me think and evaluate what I want right now, and after a little bit of a roller coaster has left me in a better place. 


I realized I needed a little change. A little focus on me and figure me out. A little, be in college and enjoy every second and use this time to figure yourself out. So figure myself out I will and learn and grow and see and play :) In the midst of that I died my hair brown,thats when Zachy called this a mid life crisis, cause of the brown hair dying not the crazy life thoughts, haha :) its fun and hair and temporary, so whatever.


I have been doing some serious adventuring lately and seeing and feeling and living and being and I absolutely love it. Im a dreamer. And when I adventure I relate everything to how that would fit into my life or how someday it might.  Or how it fits in to other peoples life.  Ive been dreaming of a yellow house with a pretty garden.  Big windows.  Lots of laughing and smiling and mornings spent on the deck in the sunshine with tea.  I told you im a dreamer.  I went to Tahoe with Jesse and it was so great, we left at 5am and the drive was gorgeous and we talked about life the whole 3 hour drive while watching the sunset and the landscape change from city to windmills to vineyards and orchards to wide open rolling green country side, to mountains and SNOW and skiing in California.  The next day I went to the beach with the girls. I love it. I am absolutely in love with this place and this life and where I am. And sometimes it just takes a bit of unsure to become a little more sure.


I also decided to give up sweets for lent. Not so much in an effort to be catholic (shh dont tell) but more so in an effort to test my will power.  I've done good so far, we'll see how long it lasts.


OH OH OH! SO SPRING BREAK 2010! Hayley, Keely, Lauren and I are going to San Diego for the week and we will be spending the week seeing, feeling, being, living and ADVENTURING! Oh boy that is my most favorite thing to do.  Hayley has a whole week of sites and beach time and bike rides and hikes and Disney Land and all sorts of fun planned for us and it is gonna be a blast. Especially considering the fact that we spend 80% of our time together on the verge of tears from laughing so hard. I cant wait!


Spring registration is Wednesday. How on Earth can we be that close to the end of our freshmen year. Blows my mind. I know there has to be more but of course I cant think of it right now, so...I'll think. And be back, someday.