thank you Eric, for everyday

There is a picture above my bed of Eric feeding me when im tinsy winsy, still in the hospital. that picture inspires me, makes my heart bigger, my world make more sense, my life more precious.  there is another one of jess and him holding me, he's looking at me with this priceless look on his face. very very loving and a little bit of "good luck in this life, you can do it with a little bit of, or you'll learn how to" i cant quite put my tongue on it, but a little bit of welp, here we are, what can i teach you before i leave. if only he knew, actually i think he does. how much he has taught me. how much seeing him giving me that look and holding me and looking into my eyes like i have the answers, if he only knew how looking at that everyday changes my life. changes my outlook. reminds me of all i have. all ive learned. all i have left to live. and how important everyday is. and how loved i am. he makes me feel more loved than anyone else in the whole entire world. one look, the very very few pictures, those are the things that remind me how much i have. even from more far away than we can ever understand, he reminds me of some of the most important things in life. and makes my heart feel better and all of me feel more at home, cause he is here with me, always, everyday, in that picture, in the blue sky and sunshine and blowing palm trees, in the water, in the snow, the rain, the everything. I am a lucky girl to have had him, to have learned from him and to always and forever get to have him in my life.