one week

Still writing about leaving, still havent left. Seems like its taking forever, but that doesnt mean I believe it anymore then I did the day I found out I got into Santa Clara. I've started packing, gonna print out some pics for my dorm, down to the last few people to say bye to. Its really real, yet more so unbelievably surreal. As I let go, and say bye to some of the people that hurt the most, I have to remember it is a transition. I love knowing that with most people, the ones who matter so so so much, nothing will change, i will come home and they will be my best friends. Its hard knowing with others things will change. It is a transition, a new part of my world, its not heartbreak, its not goodbye, and I am about to embark on the journey of my dreams. So, I'm gonna try my very best to be excited, even after you leave and I am wishing you were here. Excited for you, excited for me. Cause this is soooo exciting. And I cannot wait for every moment. This leaving thing, as much as its been prolonged, I have been living every moment to the fullest like I never have before, getting the most mileage out of my time, spending quality time with people I wouldn't otherwise. Its a nice feeling. Then Im gonna go to school and do the same. Its gonna be great. GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT!