I havent blogged for more than a week, thats not normal. I may be having trouble putting some feelings into words..so Im just letting them be feelings, there best that way, oh and they are good feelings so dont worry :)
I am reading the Lovely Bones...everyone kept saying how good it was but I was scared to read it cause it was too intense. Finally I folded and asked my mom to send it to me. I started it on Friday and am 7 pages away from the end, stuck between wanting so know the end and not ready for it to be over. There are without a doubt parts that are heart wrenching and make you cringe, but also a lot of parts that in a weird way kinda make your heart soar, for the love of people and life and death and lots of bittersweet things. Its SUCH a page turner, and the whole time makes my head go crazy. Thinking of those things...relationships, love, family, loss, life, death, heaven and so much more. I LOVE books that make me think about that. Think about Eric up there watching every moment of our lives, smiling and sometimes cringing at all he is seeing, thinking about my mom and dad and their loss and how that affected their life, thinking about someday when I have a family, and wanting it to be perfect, but knowing life happens, thinking about being a little kid and figuring things out and having walls crash around you as you try to make your life go. Its really good, I really like it. And I like doing a little bit of fun reading amidst all the reading about sociology and ethics and such.
Yesterday Scotty called and woke me up and said he had the day off and come to San Fran..I thought about for maybe 2 mins and then figured..why not. So i got ready really fast and ran to the train station and was on my way to San Fran for a day of anything. We went to a mall and went in circles and rode the spiral escalator (so cool we were like kids in a candy shop with that thing) and then he showed me the boat which I had no clue what to imagine and now have a picture in my head of how he spends his life, so so different than most of the world, which is really cool. And then we went out on a boat in the bay. And it was so sunshiney and beautiful and the sky was blue and there were pretty clouds and so much beautifulness. It was fantastic, and an adventure of seeing and feeling awesome things that was just what I have been looking for. Its pretty cool that I can just go hop on a train and be there and see this really awesome city and all the millions of different pieces of it.
Elyse is coming SO soon and Im so excited. She called yesterday and said "can we go streaking in Santa Cruz" so shes coming and we are gonna be reckless and adventurous and just exactly us and jam and play and laugh and talk and live...live soooo much it will be fantastic. I cant wait :)
This weekend nobody went out and we just stayed in and hung out and it was great. I really really really love this group of girlfriends I have here (i love the boys too). When I first really had a group of girlfriends in Summit I loved it so much, I never really had that in Leadville, obviously I have Ese and Chels and Katie but never just a group of girls like Liv, Molly, Kali, Steph and I had. So I guess Im just a little more aware of having vs not having a group of girlfriends to share everything with. And I love all laying in my bed or anyones bed and talking about everything and I absolutely love our outta control dance parties, its the best :)
The rain wont stop raining. And its fun sometimes for a little bit but I miss the sunshine and I wanna go for a run outside and I dont wanna go for a run in the rain. Im so glad it was sunny yesterday in San Fran. But I want it to be sunny here, hopefully it comes out by the end of the week. In the mean time we better go puddle jumping and dance in the rain and get drenched :)
Oops I highlighted it and cant get rid of it...sorry
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