reality check?

When I stop and think about it now I cant believe it.. and I have no idea how it happened.
But someone out there decided it'd be a good idea to put me, along with my trusty partner Jess, in charge of Young RYLA this year... WHOA... REALLY?
Some really amazing people, and some serious love for that camp have brought me this far... and some crazy life that just happens to bring you to places you never thought you'd end up and have to pinch yourself sometimes to make sure your really there.

So... for the last few months we've been reading applications, brainstorming, talking about what we need and want, dreaming, asking, calling, interviewing, listening, struggling and... honestly it hasn't felt that real.  We had 100 and some applicants to choose from and what a crazy process. Picking, choosing, and having to let some go, its a little hard on the heart when they are all SO amazing. And I may or may not have had more than a few moments of "ahhh are we doing the right thing... why am I qualified to make these decisions?!?!?!" But... when it came down to it, we made the choices and when we made the calls... it started to become really real. The excitement, and the voices and faces and all of it coming together reminded me that yes... Jess and I are in charge of this years Young RYLA and yes we are qualified and YES WE ARE GONNA MAKE IT OUT OF THIS WORLD!

The team has been chosen and informed and my news feed was filled with 5 friends added so and so and so and so accepted your friend request and those little Young RYLA butterflies in my heart just starting fluttering away. These kids are rockstars and I am so dang excited for every minute that this becomes more and more real. Its gonna be A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!! So... get excited :)

Also, last night when I was trying to fall asleep, a little unstoked on the fact that I am sickkk and spent my three day weekend trying to get better and still dont feel quite better I got a text asking about potential places to travel after El Salvador. First of all... I might be going to El Salvador??? REALLY? Again... WHOA someone pinch me ;). Second of all, how exciting that I will be there with friends who I can plan trips with now.. and go on trips with then. And go through the scary moments and the amazing moments.  And speak English with when my brain starts to hurt, and relate to when life seems so far from what I know.  Exciting... so exciting!

So...  I guess what Im feeling is a little bit of a reality check of how unreal and wonderful my life is and how the opportunities it has given me are just sometimes to amazing for me to wrap my mind around.  Craziness.

Other exciting things... Hayley and I looked at another potential place to live next year and everyday get more and more and more and more excited that we are going to live together... ahhh so perfect!
And... this weekend is our winter SCCAP retreat and I am sooo dang excited!
And... as if thats not enough, next week I turn 20 (AHHH OLD) and am gonna celebrate with a weekend in Tahoe with my best friend. So stoked.

Im one lucky kid. And life is exciting. And my lungs and are still not getting a long quite right... but we'll get there, and I am making slow progress.  I have lots of great people around me to remind me to take care of myself and not go out and do all things I want to do cause in the end I wont be able to do them for a longer time. So... Im forcing myself to rest and go to bed early and do all the things Im supposed to so I will get better. Cause its time!

Happy Wednesday... I love how 3 day weekends make the days in class just go by that much faster!