I can dig it

I still havent processed.. not even a little bit. And Im much too tired to write anything profound. But I feel like if I dont do it soon enough Im gonna forget all the beauty thats been happenin in my life lately.

I can dig it...

Sophomore year ended so wonderfully. Thursday night we celebrated... danced, hugged, loved, talked about upcoming adventures and just enjoyed ourselves. Friday night Hayley and I had an epic final sophomore year life chat. We walked all around campus prepared with tea and a lots behind and ahead to think about. We stopped at our spot where so many life chats have happened, ran through the itty bitty hills and laughed like we were 6, attempted to climb trees, sat on the couches outside the solar decathalon house and made a few extra laps through the mission gardens.  Its crazy that we only have two years under our belts as friends, feels like ages that we have known each other. And six months apart feels a little to long, but coming back to a room shared with her is so dang exciting.

Saturday was graduation... something that words definitely wont do justice for.  The senior women in my life this year have been so important... so special, inspiring, comforting, loving, formative and so many things.  They have guided me and effected me more than I will ever know and I feel so very lucky to have had them in my life this year. To Cara, Maddie, Diana, Elizabeth and Danielle... you ladies are the best in the world and I am so very excited to see all the love and beauty that you bring to the rest of the world.  We laughed a lot and we cried... and that was ok. Emotions are good and I feel lucky to have a life wonderful enough that changes bring tears. I will miss this year with the best community I could ever ask for. I will miss all the time spent with Cara... the laughing, whining, dinners, department meetings, adventures, so many things. I will miss Maddies forever hugs in the SCCAP office and a love thats never ending, Diana's exploding amounts of passion, her dancing and singing... the "mmeeeessshhh" and a the best hug that leads to a benson lunch I cant deny. I will miss Eli's love and sass.. that way she can make me laugh like none other and yoga with Danielle, the sass that comes in full swing when we're together and a super great relationship that started with a great conversation at the fall retreat. I will miss mass with these girls, their smiles and hugs and encouragement, their wisdom that seems so very knowledgable and helpful when I need it the most. But more than anything else I just feel so very thankful that I had this past year to learn so much from them. To aspire to be them, to learn about love, strength, passion, vulnerability and all these things that I know will help to form me. Thank you girls, you are the best ever and I will miss you dearly.

Sunday I hiked with Jesse and Kylie and the next couple days I just hung out, relaxed, said bye to people and it was so great. So many times I leave school stressed and with no sleep and it feels so emotional and silly. Giving myself sometime after all the packing was done just to see people and say goodbyes and relax a little was so great. I spent great time with Cara and Danielle dying laughing about stupid videos and had such a wonderful sleepover with DBu.. just what I needed to kick off my summer.

It was a perfect end to an even better year. Words cannot describe this year. So meaningful and influential, overflowing with so many things and just rich and full as can be. Such a good year. Always a little hard to say goodbye bWut each year I learn that each new always makes up for the ping in my heart of letting go of the old... life goes how its supposed to.. I really believe that.

Home has welcomed me home so wonderfully. The boys were home when I got here Wednesday and we drove up some narrow dirt roads to take in the view, Zachy played some guitar and we just looked at the big beautiful mountains that surrounded us. We made burritos and ate with our parents, hot tubbed and then took a fun walk home. Spent some quality time with my mama and we had a great talk. I wish i could give her the world, she is so strong and deserves so much but somehow life keeps a comin at her. I wish I could give her the life she has given me and I wish the pieces would all fit together a little. We spent the night in Summit, had some BBQ challenge and spent last night in Boulder and tonight in Fort Collins.

I left one beautiful place teeming with amazing friends for another. This little life and this tight crew of best friends I have here is so dang special and one of a kind. Its so comfortable to come home to this even if the conversations are different, it is home. And for now it feels right. In a week I might be sick of this little town but for now I am loving it. I get to see Mindy and Kam tomorrow and cannot wait. We had another get together for Young RYLA today and its all starting to feel a little more real.

All of this is crazy and exciting and my brains been too distracted with all the wonderfulness of this life to stop and over think too much. 

This life is good, and I sure can dig it. XOXOXO