Blogging is my oasis. Sorry if Im flooding anything I might be flooding but I need a little processing time.
WHOA!!!!!!
You know that feeling when your throat feels a little tight and your stomach has butterflies and you feel a little tense and tired just thinking about the chaos of life. I feel like that right now.
This quarter is going to be CRAZYYYYY!
I have so much wonderful life to live that I feel like I might forget to breathe. BUT Im living too good of a life to even need too much breathing time. Ha. Those are the words of a crazy person. I have a little weekly schedule thing in front of me where I can block off classes, work, SCCAP office hours, Arrupe and LUCHA and when I look at it.. the blank spots are sooo few it scares me. I KNOW its good. And I KNOW this is what Im here for and Im supposed to be spending time doing all this awesome stuff that I am so lucky to be a part of. But um.. I could use a little time to get in the swing of things.
Too bad.. there is not time for swinging :) So... HEREE WE GOOOOO!!! HOLD ON TIGHT!
I love being here. I love being slammed busy but loving every minute of the things I am doing. I love being surrounded by people who are just as busy and excited and full of life. I love feeling like there are so many opportunities, so many ways to fill my time. I LOVE IT!
I just might need a little reminder to breathe sometimes. To sleep. To exercise. And to eat normally.
Im gonna make this quarter fantastic. And stay on top of my game and love it. Cause the train is a running so I gotta catch up :)
Thanks for letting me vent. I feel better now :) Time for bed! XOXO
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
dreamin, planning, dancing, growing, learning.. L I V I N G
well hello there world. Happy end of the first day of school.
The first day of school. I like that those are a consistent in my life. Since I was just a little guy crying when my mom left me. And I still get to cry a little when my mom leaves me :). Good life.
Anyways... the first day of school was... LONG, busy, exhausting, exciting, scary, fun, new, dream creating, and all sorts of things.
I worked this morning and did some thinking/planning/logistics doing before they had me stuffing envelopes. It went by fast. Its nice to be back there, to know people, to have a job, and to just have sometime to do whatever and be mindless.
Then it was school time. Anthropology and Contemporary Issues of BUSINESS... WHOA! Anthro is cool... totally my thing, as long as the professor stays cool I think Im gonna like it. I really like learning about people, and seeing how societies and stuff work so Im excited for that.
Then business. We talked about why we are in the class. Not kidding the majority said because their parents do business or they want (in some way shape or form) to make money. Then I spilled.. I'm the sociology major, totally out of my comfort zone, trying this out cause Im interested in foreign service and see the value of business paired with sociology, and I hope it works out... phew, got that off my chest. But... drum roll please... I LIKED IT and it made my little dreamer brain run like crazy. And! The teacher is very... what I need. She altered the books definition of business to make it relative to non profits too, she sees the importance of that. She also is in charge of global fellows, the summer international service internship program Im SUPER interested in. And I think its gonna be good.
Ill admit I was slightly intimidated. Its by no means going to be easy. But a challenge is good, and it will keep me on my toes. Im diving in, cause its all about risks and getting your world rocked here and there right. Im ready :)
Its so good to be back here. Its so good to be in classes that make my brain run and never stop. To walk around in the sunshine and roses and beauty of this place. To go swimming. To have cellar dinner and laugh so hard with my best friends. To be home <3
This quarter is gonna be crazy busy. Im not sure when Ill breathe kinda busy. But its all good stuff. And thats what Im here for... to squeeze the marrow out of this life. So... we're running, hope my legs can keep up with my learning,dancing, growing and forever dreaming brain :)
P.S. I also think Im really gonna love the management classes I have to take... back to my party planning days. Planning, organizing, team work. Exciting. I have big dreams coming out of these developments... and its only the beginning!
P.S.S. You KNOW it was a good day when I choose yellow :)
The first day of school. I like that those are a consistent in my life. Since I was just a little guy crying when my mom left me. And I still get to cry a little when my mom leaves me :). Good life.
Anyways... the first day of school was... LONG, busy, exhausting, exciting, scary, fun, new, dream creating, and all sorts of things.
I worked this morning and did some thinking/planning/logistics doing before they had me stuffing envelopes. It went by fast. Its nice to be back there, to know people, to have a job, and to just have sometime to do whatever and be mindless.
Then it was school time. Anthropology and Contemporary Issues of BUSINESS... WHOA! Anthro is cool... totally my thing, as long as the professor stays cool I think Im gonna like it. I really like learning about people, and seeing how societies and stuff work so Im excited for that.
Then business. We talked about why we are in the class. Not kidding the majority said because their parents do business or they want (in some way shape or form) to make money. Then I spilled.. I'm the sociology major, totally out of my comfort zone, trying this out cause Im interested in foreign service and see the value of business paired with sociology, and I hope it works out... phew, got that off my chest. But... drum roll please... I LIKED IT and it made my little dreamer brain run like crazy. And! The teacher is very... what I need. She altered the books definition of business to make it relative to non profits too, she sees the importance of that. She also is in charge of global fellows, the summer international service internship program Im SUPER interested in. And I think its gonna be good.
Ill admit I was slightly intimidated. Its by no means going to be easy. But a challenge is good, and it will keep me on my toes. Im diving in, cause its all about risks and getting your world rocked here and there right. Im ready :)
Its so good to be back here. Its so good to be in classes that make my brain run and never stop. To walk around in the sunshine and roses and beauty of this place. To go swimming. To have cellar dinner and laugh so hard with my best friends. To be home <3
This quarter is gonna be crazy busy. Im not sure when Ill breathe kinda busy. But its all good stuff. And thats what Im here for... to squeeze the marrow out of this life. So... we're running, hope my legs can keep up with my learning,dancing, growing and forever dreaming brain :)
P.S. I also think Im really gonna love the management classes I have to take... back to my party planning days. Planning, organizing, team work. Exciting. I have big dreams coming out of these developments... and its only the beginning!
P.S.S. You KNOW it was a good day when I choose yellow :)
Sunday, September 19, 2010
exhausted thoughts of sophomore year STARTING!!!
um hello there
sophomore year starts tomorrow.
and i want nothing more than to lay my little head down and sleep the night away so i am READY for the day :)
i am EXHAUSTED from moving in, organizing, seeing people, spilling excitement about SCCAP to people at the club fair and from all the emotions surrounding this whole moving in, starting school, crazy transition wonderfulness.
SCCAP retreat was fantastic. I love these people. Like seriously I LOVE THEM. They remind me whats important in life. And fill me so dang full of love and joy and passion that I just wanna bounce around and spread what they give me.
I think I may end up studying abroad in El Salvador instead of Spain. long story.. to be explained later. But partially in my head forever, and very much so encouraged by many SCCAPers... it would be much more meaningful and unique. I like that.
These amazing kiddos also had my head running like crazy around Global Fellows and Donavan...both summer service programs that I will be involved in at least one of :)
They make me wanna do and be and live.
And I cant ask for anything more from the people I surround myself with
Then I came home to Hayley. More making me want to do and be and live. Someone to share all this with. To talk about it and dream with. To love life with. To question everything. To talk about the importance of getting our worlds rocked. To encourage me and remind me who I am. And to have late night pillow talk with that leads to "I dunno what I do... I just be cheesy" ha
Confession... I SO wish I was living with her.
But she's near by, and we'll be spending plenty of time together. And she's my best friend SO its all good.
Anyways, Im moved in. It feels great. I moved in pretty much by myself, which was a little hard and for a minute had me a little sad that my mom wasnt here hanging up my clothes and making my bed. But it all worked out, and her and I had so much good time together on our way out. Its weird being far away from Hayley and Lauren and Stella and the boys and everyone that was always around last year. We've had a couple moments of AHHHHHHH this is too weird.
But I am so dang excited to be in San Fillipo. There is so much good stuff here. So many great people. And the walk to Hayley and Lauren's room really isn't that bad and we'll just meet new people.
Its going to be a FANTASTIC year and I am really really out of this world excited for all thats to come.
School starts tomorrow... WHOA
work at 8 and class at 2:15. I cant even believe it, and the transition will undoubtedly be slightly challenging but thats normal. So.. Im going to bed. Ill come back soon with better less exhausted thoughts.
Love you all so very much :)
sophomore year starts tomorrow.
and i want nothing more than to lay my little head down and sleep the night away so i am READY for the day :)
i am EXHAUSTED from moving in, organizing, seeing people, spilling excitement about SCCAP to people at the club fair and from all the emotions surrounding this whole moving in, starting school, crazy transition wonderfulness.
SCCAP retreat was fantastic. I love these people. Like seriously I LOVE THEM. They remind me whats important in life. And fill me so dang full of love and joy and passion that I just wanna bounce around and spread what they give me.
I think I may end up studying abroad in El Salvador instead of Spain. long story.. to be explained later. But partially in my head forever, and very much so encouraged by many SCCAPers... it would be much more meaningful and unique. I like that.
These amazing kiddos also had my head running like crazy around Global Fellows and Donavan...both summer service programs that I will be involved in at least one of :)
They make me wanna do and be and live.
And I cant ask for anything more from the people I surround myself with
Then I came home to Hayley. More making me want to do and be and live. Someone to share all this with. To talk about it and dream with. To love life with. To question everything. To talk about the importance of getting our worlds rocked. To encourage me and remind me who I am. And to have late night pillow talk with that leads to "I dunno what I do... I just be cheesy" ha
Confession... I SO wish I was living with her.
But she's near by, and we'll be spending plenty of time together. And she's my best friend SO its all good.
Anyways, Im moved in. It feels great. I moved in pretty much by myself, which was a little hard and for a minute had me a little sad that my mom wasnt here hanging up my clothes and making my bed. But it all worked out, and her and I had so much good time together on our way out. Its weird being far away from Hayley and Lauren and Stella and the boys and everyone that was always around last year. We've had a couple moments of AHHHHHHH this is too weird.
But I am so dang excited to be in San Fillipo. There is so much good stuff here. So many great people. And the walk to Hayley and Lauren's room really isn't that bad and we'll just meet new people.
Its going to be a FANTASTIC year and I am really really out of this world excited for all thats to come.
School starts tomorrow... WHOA
work at 8 and class at 2:15. I cant even believe it, and the transition will undoubtedly be slightly challenging but thats normal. So.. Im going to bed. Ill come back soon with better less exhausted thoughts.
Love you all so very much :)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
running along with the always spinning record of life
So... I feel like I really owe the world of my blog (not sure who that is. me for later reference, my few lovely readers, my brain?) whoever that is, a bit of an update. Especially cause I am in transition mode, almost done transitioning and it has been a great transition...
All the packing, car washing, good bye saying came to a close Wednesday morning and we drove away. I got up bright and early and went to the lake for a quick jog and stopped by to say bye to Eric. I love going there, I love being in a space that's his, and I love knowing that if nothing else, for the rest of my life he will bring me back to my little beloved town. We were incredibly organized, the car was very full but everything fit and although I teared up a little saying bye to my dogs (I dunno why they make me cry) driving away felt good, to both of us. We needed to get away, I needed to be on my way back here and the trip went so well.
The first night we stopped in Moab, camped on a little spot by the river surrounded my big red rocks towering over us. I went for a short hike, we made burritos on the fire (DELICIOUS) and we laid on the picnic table and looked at the stars. It was wonderful, and peaceful and good mamma time. Day 2 we drove on this forever going straight, middle of no where two lane road to get to campsite number 2 in the least visit National Park in America. But again, beautiful. In the woods, kinda mountainy and in between two little streams. It was great. My mom really knows how to camp and it was 2 great nights of peace and us time and just being on our terms.
The driving was long but it went by fast, we took turns, I jammed, took in the views (and despite the fact that we drove on the lonliest highway in America oh there were views) and just did our thing. And side note.. we BARELY fought at all. It was good stuff, we needed it, for each other time, for ourselves time, and for get away time. And for me it was exactly the transition I needed before coming back to the chaos and excitement and constantness of school.
Friday we met Jes and Kylie at her cabin near Kirkwood which was also great. We read and went for a hike and laughed til we cried playing board games and were lazy butts, another perfect thing for us. We got to Santa Clara sunday night, did errands and showed mom a couple things on Monday and I dropped her off yesterday morning. Another little bit sad moment but easier for both of us than it has been in the past. We know this is where I am supposed to be, we know that for life she'll be my mama and Ill be her little girl and it was ok. We talked a lot on the drive about how important it is to spread your wings and fly, to go see new places and do new things and learn and grow. I love that she is engrained that in me and forever will support me to go and do and fly away and learn. Its wonderful.
Now Im at Laurens house with Keely and Hayley laying around, catching up on life, running errands, talking about how excited we are to be back and just enjoying each others company. Its so good to be back. So good to come back to this little family that we are. And so exciting to think of all the wonderfulness that is ahead. Its hard for my head to keep up with all of this amazing life. And sometimes hard to connect the dots. But I think often they connect on their own. And all that I learned and felt this summer being home enjoying the mountains, at the different RYLAs and learning a little bit more about life comes with me, and forever it all just sorta connects and keeps running with you even when your body feels like you cant quite keep up. Life is so good. And I love that I am here and walk on campus and am completely in love with the place. Man... Im one lucky girl I tell ya.
Also.. I declared an International Business minor today. I kind of had to so that I can get into a business class this quarter and try it out and of course its never permanent. But... there are some emotions behind that. Super excited to try it out, see where it takes me, for the prospect of something new and different. And equally nervous. Honestly, its a bit of risky move. Unlike sociology, Im not a hundred percent sure that Im gonna like it or necesarilly succeed at it. And its a big move. The girls all joked about how its the flavor of the week, cause its true, I'd come home last year day after day with new ideas but this is the most Ive ever done about an idea. And Im excited for the challenge. What's life without risks? And how am I ever going to know without trying it out. Just wish me luck that I wont completely suck at it and or completely hate it. I think it's gonna be good though :)
Alright its nap time. We go on SCCAP retreat tomorrow which should be fun. And move in Sunday! Its all rolling and Im just running with it trying to keep up :) Always hoping your life is as exciting and GGRREEAAATTT as I feel mine is. And thanking all of you for making mine that way (P.S. Susan and Jim, thanks for EVERYTHING getting me out of there and all summer and for the past 19 years, you guys really mean the world to me <3)
xoxoxo
All the packing, car washing, good bye saying came to a close Wednesday morning and we drove away. I got up bright and early and went to the lake for a quick jog and stopped by to say bye to Eric. I love going there, I love being in a space that's his, and I love knowing that if nothing else, for the rest of my life he will bring me back to my little beloved town. We were incredibly organized, the car was very full but everything fit and although I teared up a little saying bye to my dogs (I dunno why they make me cry) driving away felt good, to both of us. We needed to get away, I needed to be on my way back here and the trip went so well.
The first night we stopped in Moab, camped on a little spot by the river surrounded my big red rocks towering over us. I went for a short hike, we made burritos on the fire (DELICIOUS) and we laid on the picnic table and looked at the stars. It was wonderful, and peaceful and good mamma time. Day 2 we drove on this forever going straight, middle of no where two lane road to get to campsite number 2 in the least visit National Park in America. But again, beautiful. In the woods, kinda mountainy and in between two little streams. It was great. My mom really knows how to camp and it was 2 great nights of peace and us time and just being on our terms.
The driving was long but it went by fast, we took turns, I jammed, took in the views (and despite the fact that we drove on the lonliest highway in America oh there were views) and just did our thing. And side note.. we BARELY fought at all. It was good stuff, we needed it, for each other time, for ourselves time, and for get away time. And for me it was exactly the transition I needed before coming back to the chaos and excitement and constantness of school.
Friday we met Jes and Kylie at her cabin near Kirkwood which was also great. We read and went for a hike and laughed til we cried playing board games and were lazy butts, another perfect thing for us. We got to Santa Clara sunday night, did errands and showed mom a couple things on Monday and I dropped her off yesterday morning. Another little bit sad moment but easier for both of us than it has been in the past. We know this is where I am supposed to be, we know that for life she'll be my mama and Ill be her little girl and it was ok. We talked a lot on the drive about how important it is to spread your wings and fly, to go see new places and do new things and learn and grow. I love that she is engrained that in me and forever will support me to go and do and fly away and learn. Its wonderful.
Now Im at Laurens house with Keely and Hayley laying around, catching up on life, running errands, talking about how excited we are to be back and just enjoying each others company. Its so good to be back. So good to come back to this little family that we are. And so exciting to think of all the wonderfulness that is ahead. Its hard for my head to keep up with all of this amazing life. And sometimes hard to connect the dots. But I think often they connect on their own. And all that I learned and felt this summer being home enjoying the mountains, at the different RYLAs and learning a little bit more about life comes with me, and forever it all just sorta connects and keeps running with you even when your body feels like you cant quite keep up. Life is so good. And I love that I am here and walk on campus and am completely in love with the place. Man... Im one lucky girl I tell ya.
Also.. I declared an International Business minor today. I kind of had to so that I can get into a business class this quarter and try it out and of course its never permanent. But... there are some emotions behind that. Super excited to try it out, see where it takes me, for the prospect of something new and different. And equally nervous. Honestly, its a bit of risky move. Unlike sociology, Im not a hundred percent sure that Im gonna like it or necesarilly succeed at it. And its a big move. The girls all joked about how its the flavor of the week, cause its true, I'd come home last year day after day with new ideas but this is the most Ive ever done about an idea. And Im excited for the challenge. What's life without risks? And how am I ever going to know without trying it out. Just wish me luck that I wont completely suck at it and or completely hate it. I think it's gonna be good though :)
Alright its nap time. We go on SCCAP retreat tomorrow which should be fun. And move in Sunday! Its all rolling and Im just running with it trying to keep up :) Always hoping your life is as exciting and GGRREEAAATTT as I feel mine is. And thanking all of you for making mine that way (P.S. Susan and Jim, thanks for EVERYTHING getting me out of there and all summer and for the past 19 years, you guys really mean the world to me <3)
xoxoxo
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
best kind of leaving :)
helllo :)
im laying in bed. on my last night at home for a while. and it feels GREAT. I remember this same moment last year. My last night at home. Blogging. Scared. Sad. Excited but just SO unsure. This year Im SO sure. So sure that its gonna be great and that I love it and that its everything I always hoped it would be. SO sure that I will go back there and be in heaven and not sad to not be here. So sure that my friends there will be like a big blanket welcoming me back. So sure that I will learn and grow and have the time of my life. And most importantly sure that it is right and where I am supposed to be and that leaving here for there is the best kinda leaving I could ever ask for.
I had a meltdown last night. And another one this morning. A mix of stress and saying bye and my parents being frustrating and all sorts of things. But honestly I needed that. I needed to fight with my mom a little to remind myself that I am where Im supposed to be at school and to remind myself that I AM SO READY TO GO BACK. And then I got over it and decided to focus on how wonderful this summer was and the fact that Im going back to wonderful. And no matter what silly things frustrate me between now and then Im gonna get there and thats what matters. SO Im letting go. Im gonna try so hard to be patient and just know that we will get there. And enjoy our time together. Cause why not?
This summer has been SOOOOO good. And Im so thankful that I got to be in these beautiful mountains. And that I made the most of it. I played outside so much. Spent time with my best friends. Made money. Adventured, learned, grew. All the things I wanted to do. It was GRREAATTTT! And now its time to go back and continue the great.
Im not feeling very sentimental.. I cried to much this morning to be mushy gushy. Which is ok because that way I can just be excited and not sad to leave. Because I know ill be back soon. And this place and my best friends and the things that matter will always be there. And I can come back and enjoy it and phones and skype and all things technology make 2,000 miles away seem like nothing :)
So heres to a wonderful drive enjoying the views and the time with my mamma and all sorts of things. And to a wonderful summer. And an amazing sophomore year to come with all sorts of exciting adventures. Thanks home for an awesome summer, and for sending me on my way to keep learning,dancing,growing and forever dreaming :) See you sooon!
P.S. sophomore year bucket list!
-immersion trip
-camping!
-ski at Tahoe
-explore California
-road trip to Seattle
-be a big sister :)
-babysit
-keep up that Dean's List status
-declare a minor... or two
-meet lots of new people
-runnn and bike more :)
-hike!
- adventure adventure adventure!!!!!
-get in touch with Rotary/find Rotaract/ work on Rotaract E Club
yayyyyyy Im so excited :)
be back soon. Probably once Im in California. Send safe and fun and patient vibes my way for the miles of driving with mi mama. Mucho amor!!!!!!!!!!
im laying in bed. on my last night at home for a while. and it feels GREAT. I remember this same moment last year. My last night at home. Blogging. Scared. Sad. Excited but just SO unsure. This year Im SO sure. So sure that its gonna be great and that I love it and that its everything I always hoped it would be. SO sure that I will go back there and be in heaven and not sad to not be here. So sure that my friends there will be like a big blanket welcoming me back. So sure that I will learn and grow and have the time of my life. And most importantly sure that it is right and where I am supposed to be and that leaving here for there is the best kinda leaving I could ever ask for.
I had a meltdown last night. And another one this morning. A mix of stress and saying bye and my parents being frustrating and all sorts of things. But honestly I needed that. I needed to fight with my mom a little to remind myself that I am where Im supposed to be at school and to remind myself that I AM SO READY TO GO BACK. And then I got over it and decided to focus on how wonderful this summer was and the fact that Im going back to wonderful. And no matter what silly things frustrate me between now and then Im gonna get there and thats what matters. SO Im letting go. Im gonna try so hard to be patient and just know that we will get there. And enjoy our time together. Cause why not?
This summer has been SOOOOO good. And Im so thankful that I got to be in these beautiful mountains. And that I made the most of it. I played outside so much. Spent time with my best friends. Made money. Adventured, learned, grew. All the things I wanted to do. It was GRREAATTTT! And now its time to go back and continue the great.
Im not feeling very sentimental.. I cried to much this morning to be mushy gushy. Which is ok because that way I can just be excited and not sad to leave. Because I know ill be back soon. And this place and my best friends and the things that matter will always be there. And I can come back and enjoy it and phones and skype and all things technology make 2,000 miles away seem like nothing :)
So heres to a wonderful drive enjoying the views and the time with my mamma and all sorts of things. And to a wonderful summer. And an amazing sophomore year to come with all sorts of exciting adventures. Thanks home for an awesome summer, and for sending me on my way to keep learning,dancing,growing and forever dreaming :) See you sooon!
P.S. sophomore year bucket list!
-immersion trip
-camping!
-ski at Tahoe
-explore California
-road trip to Seattle
-be a big sister :)
-babysit
-keep up that Dean's List status
-declare a minor... or two
-meet lots of new people
-runnn and bike more :)
-hike!
- adventure adventure adventure!!!!!
-get in touch with Rotary/find Rotaract/ work on Rotaract E Club
yayyyyyy Im so excited :)
be back soon. Probably once Im in California. Send safe and fun and patient vibes my way for the miles of driving with mi mama. Mucho amor!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
THREE DAYS
hmmm... my thoughts are far too scattered to figure out how to start this somewhat normal. so.. hello :)
before I get ahead of myself... I HAD SUCH A GOOD WEEKEND... and its not even over
Wednesday night i went to bed having one of those days where its just time to feel it. where life just felt a little bit too scary to deal with at the moment. I cried to Kelly and Victoria. There are a few people in my life that for whatever reason tears just flow easier around than others. They are some of those people and we got to talking about life and there they came. And they listened and loved and understood and reminded me that I am me and life is life and all I can do is take care of mine. And I left feeling better but also slightly defeated by some of the things I cant and wont ever be able to control. So I came home and went to bed and I woke up the next morning ran, packed, got stuff done and was off to Boulder. To play and laugh and be with my best friends and remind myself that life is FAR too good to ever ever ever feel defeated.
The two days there was fantastic. We rode bikes. And danced. And laughed. And lounged. And explored. And all sorts of things. All but about 2 of my best friends in the entire world were in one house at the same time... HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY!??!?! And we just had all sorts of fun. It was exactly the two nights of adventure and friends and fun that I needed to get out of my blahhhhh funk and to commemorate my summer. It was fantastic... enough said.
Now Im home. Spent the day at Beaver Lakes with the fam and came home to pack some more. IM LEAVING IN THREE DAYS! The emotions behind that statement are overflowing. Excitement, nostalgia, stress, anxiety, a little bit of sadness, nervousness, so happy... soooo many things. Packing is a pain in the butt. Cause Im packing for school... a five day long drive drive to school... 5 days of camping during and after my arrival and about 5 days in between. Pain in the butt I tell you.
The excitement is over ruling all the other emotions. And needs no explanation or thought. Im just SUPER stoked for SO many things. But... Im a little sad to leave home. To leave my best friends.. again. Im a little nostalgic about the fact that.. I might not be back here for a very long period of time any time soon. Im nostalgic about leaving the beauty of this place.
But.. I also realized that although this is home and it is soo unique and beautiful its not the only type of beautiful or the only unique type of beautiful. I have been SO lucky to live here for the last 19 years, to grow up here, to always call this home, but I need to keep finding different kinds of beauty. And Ill come back to the stars and mountains and amazing fairytale views
I also have so much faith in saying goodbye to my friends. I know now who will stay close. And that the ones who matter are the ones that stay close. And its beautiful :)
So... enjoying the next three days and hoping I an get everything done without having a nervous break down and IM OFF TO CALIFORNIA for the next adventure :) YAY!
<3
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Confession
I have a confession to make
Behind all the excitement and chaos and readiness for school.
Im starting to get sad about leaving. Im not sure Im ready to let go of this home, let go even more than before.
Ive fallen in love with all that it is again. And Im not good at letting go.
Im on to another amazing adventure and I will be back.
But...still scared to let go.
Behind all the excitement and chaos and readiness for school.
Im starting to get sad about leaving. Im not sure Im ready to let go of this home, let go even more than before.
Ive fallen in love with all that it is again. And Im not good at letting go.
Im on to another amazing adventure and I will be back.
But...still scared to let go.
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