best kind of leaving :)

helllo :)


im laying in bed. on my last night at home for a while. and it feels GREAT. I remember this same moment last year. My last night at home. Blogging. Scared. Sad. Excited but just SO unsure.  This year Im SO sure. So sure that its gonna be great and that I love it and that its everything I always hoped it would be. SO sure that I will go back there and be in heaven and not sad to not be here. So sure that my friends there will be like a big blanket welcoming me back. So sure that I will learn and grow and have the time of my life. And most importantly sure that it is right and where I am supposed to be and that leaving here for there is the best kinda leaving I could ever ask for.


I had a meltdown last night. And another one this morning. A mix of stress and saying bye and my parents being frustrating and all sorts of things. But honestly I needed that. I needed to fight with my mom a little to remind myself that I am where Im supposed to be at school and to remind myself that I AM SO READY TO GO BACK. And then I got over it and decided to focus on how wonderful this summer was and the fact that Im going back to wonderful. And no matter what silly things frustrate me between now and then Im gonna get there and thats what matters. SO Im letting go. Im gonna try so hard to be patient and just know that we will get there. And enjoy our time together. Cause why not?


This summer has been SOOOOO good. And Im so thankful that I got to be in these beautiful mountains. And that I made the most of it.  I played outside so much. Spent time with my best friends.  Made money.  Adventured, learned, grew. All the things I wanted to do.  It was GRREAATTTT! And now its time to go back and continue the great.


Im not feeling very sentimental.. I cried to much this morning to be mushy gushy. Which is ok because that way I can just be excited and not sad to leave. Because I know ill be back soon. And this place and my best friends and the things that matter will always be there. And I can come back and enjoy it and phones and skype and all things technology make 2,000 miles away seem like nothing :)


So heres to a wonderful drive enjoying the views and the time with my mamma and all sorts of things.  And to a wonderful summer. And an amazing sophomore year to come with all sorts of exciting adventures. Thanks home for an awesome summer, and for sending me on my way to keep learning,dancing,growing and forever dreaming :) See you sooon!


P.S. sophomore year bucket list!
-immersion trip
-camping!
-ski at Tahoe
-explore California
-road trip to Seattle
-be a big sister :)
-babysit
-keep up that Dean's List status
-declare a minor... or two
-meet lots of new people
-runnn and bike more :)
-hike!
- adventure adventure adventure!!!!!
-get in touch with Rotary/find Rotaract/ work on Rotaract E Club


yayyyyyy Im so excited :)
be back soon. Probably once Im in California. Send safe and fun and patient vibes my way for the miles of driving with mi mama. Mucho amor!!!!!!!!!!