So... I feel like I really owe the world of my blog (not sure who that is. me for later reference, my few lovely readers, my brain?) whoever that is, a bit of an update. Especially cause I am in transition mode, almost done transitioning and it has been a great transition...
All the packing, car washing, good bye saying came to a close Wednesday morning and we drove away. I got up bright and early and went to the lake for a quick jog and stopped by to say bye to Eric. I love going there, I love being in a space that's his, and I love knowing that if nothing else, for the rest of my life he will bring me back to my little beloved town. We were incredibly organized, the car was very full but everything fit and although I teared up a little saying bye to my dogs (I dunno why they make me cry) driving away felt good, to both of us. We needed to get away, I needed to be on my way back here and the trip went so well.
The first night we stopped in Moab, camped on a little spot by the river surrounded my big red rocks towering over us. I went for a short hike, we made burritos on the fire (DELICIOUS) and we laid on the picnic table and looked at the stars. It was wonderful, and peaceful and good mamma time. Day 2 we drove on this forever going straight, middle of no where two lane road to get to campsite number 2 in the least visit National Park in America. But again, beautiful. In the woods, kinda mountainy and in between two little streams. It was great. My mom really knows how to camp and it was 2 great nights of peace and us time and just being on our terms.
The driving was long but it went by fast, we took turns, I jammed, took in the views (and despite the fact that we drove on the lonliest highway in America oh there were views) and just did our thing. And side note.. we BARELY fought at all. It was good stuff, we needed it, for each other time, for ourselves time, and for get away time. And for me it was exactly the transition I needed before coming back to the chaos and excitement and constantness of school.
Friday we met Jes and Kylie at her cabin near Kirkwood which was also great. We read and went for a hike and laughed til we cried playing board games and were lazy butts, another perfect thing for us. We got to Santa Clara sunday night, did errands and showed mom a couple things on Monday and I dropped her off yesterday morning. Another little bit sad moment but easier for both of us than it has been in the past. We know this is where I am supposed to be, we know that for life she'll be my mama and Ill be her little girl and it was ok. We talked a lot on the drive about how important it is to spread your wings and fly, to go see new places and do new things and learn and grow. I love that she is engrained that in me and forever will support me to go and do and fly away and learn. Its wonderful.
Now Im at Laurens house with Keely and Hayley laying around, catching up on life, running errands, talking about how excited we are to be back and just enjoying each others company. Its so good to be back. So good to come back to this little family that we are. And so exciting to think of all the wonderfulness that is ahead. Its hard for my head to keep up with all of this amazing life. And sometimes hard to connect the dots. But I think often they connect on their own. And all that I learned and felt this summer being home enjoying the mountains, at the different RYLAs and learning a little bit more about life comes with me, and forever it all just sorta connects and keeps running with you even when your body feels like you cant quite keep up. Life is so good. And I love that I am here and walk on campus and am completely in love with the place. Man... Im one lucky girl I tell ya.
Also.. I declared an International Business minor today. I kind of had to so that I can get into a business class this quarter and try it out and of course its never permanent. But... there are some emotions behind that. Super excited to try it out, see where it takes me, for the prospect of something new and different. And equally nervous. Honestly, its a bit of risky move. Unlike sociology, Im not a hundred percent sure that Im gonna like it or necesarilly succeed at it. And its a big move. The girls all joked about how its the flavor of the week, cause its true, I'd come home last year day after day with new ideas but this is the most Ive ever done about an idea. And Im excited for the challenge. What's life without risks? And how am I ever going to know without trying it out. Just wish me luck that I wont completely suck at it and or completely hate it. I think it's gonna be good though :)
Alright its nap time. We go on SCCAP retreat tomorrow which should be fun. And move in Sunday! Its all rolling and Im just running with it trying to keep up :) Always hoping your life is as exciting and GGRREEAAATTT as I feel mine is. And thanking all of you for making mine that way (P.S. Susan and Jim, thanks for EVERYTHING getting me out of there and all summer and for the past 19 years, you guys really mean the world to me <3)
xoxoxo
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