highschool, you, me, college, free

I was never the cool kid in high school, freshmen and sophmore year really actually sucked, then junior year I finally started to find my place.  Still I wasnt part of the in crowd, senior year I finally found my crew and couldnt have been happier in our own seperate world.  We didnt go to the big parties or do the same stuff they did.  I was totally content.  Of course I knew them all, lots of their stories, all of their reputations, but forever there will be so much I didnt know.

  

Last night we decided to go out on a whim and go to the end of summer party, I figured why not, most these people I will never ever see again, and wow that is true. I'm really glad I went, and ya there are some people I was sad to say goodbye to, but for the most part I just feel like I am a completely different world.  As so many of you go to school at CU and CSU and will probably see each other a lot, I am going far far away, to a place most of you have never heard of.  To a place where there will be no preconceived views of me, their will be nothing for them to judge me off of, I will have every chance to be me, and exactly who I want to be, its a clean slate and I am so excited.

It was weird driving away, thinking to myself, these are the people I saw everyday, shared classes with, shared distant experiences with and had a view from a distance of who you were, and really barely felt a ping of sadness to drive away.  This sounds like I'm heartless, like I dont care, like I'm a selfish secluded jerk, but really I think its only because I am me, my own.  I am confident in who I am and who I have become and where I am going.  There was not one moment when I felt uncomfortable last night, I was happy to be there. Yet, I know there is so much ahead, and most of you, who on both ends we have never taken the time to barely say hello let alone get to know each other, I feel no attachment.  And i wish those people luck, do great things, change the world, and maybe someday our paths will meet again.

Of course there are others who will sting down to the core, people who I will miss daily, and think about all the time. But I know we are going places that are good, we are gonna be ok apart, and this is a time to grab on and enjoy the ride :)