Its really real

   I'm not sure how we got here, I really cant quite fathom the in between, it seemed so quick, so like it just happened.  But we are here, most people left to school Thursday, Zachy goes back tomorrow and its all so incredible real.  As I toured Elyse's new house, watched Molly move into her dorm and tomorrow will help Zachy move back to his home, I realize how we really truly are grown up.  We are taking a step into a new world, all a big step, yet each our very own.  Its starting to hit that I am leaving, that i will be thousands of miles away and things are gonna change dramatically.

  I have always been the one sooo excited for college, and dont get me wrong I cant freaking wait, I would start packing today if I had more time.  But wow, I have lived in this little town my entire life, never moved houses, had the same group of best friends since day care, and have become so used to the familiar face and love of a small town.  Even in Summit, we all know each other, we may not be close, yet I know your name, and you know mine and if I saw you in a crowded room millions of miles away I would feel a little piece of home.  And now its time to let go, start over, and meet all new friends.  I know I will find the community I have found here, and in Summit, but its a whole new beginning.

I'm scared out of my mind to be far away from Zach, Ese, Chels, Dave, even Will.  Before I could come see you guys preety often or youd come home to ski, now I am so far away and its going to become even less regular.  I'm not worried that anything will change or we will grow apart, I'm just scared of how much I will miss the hugs, the late nights, you guys showing me your world and the ropes.  I will miss every minute we have together so much. You are my family and its gonna be a whole different thing being miles and miles away.

After I said bye to Molly I drove away and started to think, this group I have formed hasnt been around long, but camping, and they day with the girls reminded me how much I love you all and how convenient it is to have friends to hang out with whenever.  We have had so many adventures, and seen all the good and bad of highschool together.  And now we go our seperate ways, but its so awesome, and there is so much good to come. And guess what, we have skype and cell phones and facebook so there is no reason to loose contact.

Zachy is leaving tomorrow, he has been the only one who has been physically here for the last 18 years, even if he was away for a year.  I am scared out of my mind to be away from him.  I will miss you every minute of every day, just like I did last year.  You are my right hand man, my best friend, my brother, my everything and I honestly dunno how next year will be without you nearby.  Thank you for getting me here. I love you more then life. And everyone else to you the same....heres to a new step.  Wow, its exciting, its crazy and its so incredibly real.