Good morning blue skies
Good morning snow covered mountains
Good morning day filled with good things
Oh home, I love it here, i freaking love it here. But..the first week I loved it the most, then I start to get a little confused.
My whole life I thrive off of being so incredibly busy I cant breathe, off of totally stressing myself out and filling all my time up. And I come home and feel like I have to fit so much in and do the same. And then sometimes I feel like Im not doing enough and time just freaks me out.
I have less than two weeks left. And its gonna be so busy and I just feel like when Im sitting at home Im doing something wrong, like I should be doing something with this time I have until I meet molly at 12. I could go skiing but I dont wanna ski by myself, i want Zachy to go ski with me but he has to go to Breck. Ugh. I dont like just having copper and a basin, next year I hope I have a job and some money to buy myself a pass so I can ski wherever. Its not that abasin and copper are bad at all its just I want to be able to ski with everyone and everyone skis at Breck.
I went to Britts on Saturday and her and Sarah and I had such a fantastically RYLAesque night. We saw the Blindside (again) which is sooo freaking good it gives me goosebumps the whole time and at the end I have a little more faith in the world (very RYLA) then we went to Britts and stayed up for hours and hours talking all about RYLA and remembering all the random silly moments and getting goose bumps again and anticipating next year, which is scary for us and a funny thing. Most likely we will be back, but there are no guarantees, so we worry our little heads off since it has become such a huge piece of our lives. We talked about going in this year knowing what we're doing, which seems a lot better than our fears and worries of last year. Oh RYLA i just love it like nothing else in the world. We laughed so hard it hurt thinking of Kels's laugh and Terry and all sorts of fun random things that can only be as funny as they are on 3 hours of sleep nightly and complete mental exhaustion, its fantastic. Then we had lunch with Kerry which was great. He sees the world through fantastic eyes and our views match up. College has done us so much good and Im just glad we understand the world the same. Hopefully we will all be together soon in a weekish?!?! We're hoping Scotty will be here, and Im hoping i will here from Scotty TOMORROW! Crazy
Then I came home sooo tired and cried to my mom. Ive been doing a lot of that lately. Its like cause at school I never cry I have to take care of it all while Im home with my mommy. A few things just dont feel right. Things change and I gotta get used to that. But really things are pretty damn great.
Im gonna workout with mol, then Christmas shop with Liv and Steph and then maybe sled or something else with the crew. Which p.s. is something I really miss and love that we can get together again and laugh and just be us. We all hung out on Friday night and I forgot how big a part of my life time at Derek's with everyone was, it was a blast :). Maybe Christmas shopping will make me feel more Christmasy. Maybe I will make some Christmas cookies while I get wait to go workout. Or maybe I dont even have time.
Christmas is on Friday and Jesse gets here on Wednesday. I dunno what we're doing yet but Im actually excited for a small, relaxed Christmas without loads and loads of presents. Just some family time will be nice. We go to the yurt on Saturday. I'm trying to be excited, I really am, Im just worn down from planning, I will not be planning next year so we'll see if this is the last year.
Hopefully we can play in the snow today, but there really isnt much which is sad. Home is great and just gotta love it. :)
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