Ask questions, feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart.

i can feel my soul. 

i can feel the universe aligning around me. 

i can feel the doubt of putting it all out there for the world to see.

tonight i got another phone call, another universe kind of phone call. that will in the long run (not that long) be the determinant of some big choices I have been exploring.

I am mixed with all sorts of emotion.... excitement, joy, anxiety and a piece of me that is taking a rain check for some other ideas. a rain check happily taken.

I believe in fate. There was a day in my life that I laid in the grass under the sun and looked ahead and behind and realized I am alive.. I am going places.. and oh have I been places. I realized that life is so dang scary, but somehow it all works out. So... I believe in fate.

I think that the universe allows for a crazy mix of control, and no control at all. And sometimes the lack of control is the scariest thing ever and sometimes it is the most exhilarating thing ever. But I think in the end they balance each other out. Just when you are scared out of your mind cause things are reeling out of your control.. something in your life reminds you to hold on to the choices you can make. And just when the options seem endless and scary and like you could never ever decide, the universe grabs your hand and leads you in the right way.

Call me crazy, but I can feel my soul. And in all brutal honesty, me and my soul, thats what matters for now. 

I am learning a little something about following my heart. From living and learning. But more... From a friend who knows the right questions to ask and sees life from the most wonderfully colored kaleidoscope. 

Im learning the importance of this quote "Learn to follow your heart. Be quiet for a while at first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart"

Its telling me so much now. So much that I know is real and tangible and that just feels right. And that is sometimes scary, or different, or even not exactly as I thought it would happen, but for that reason, is just as dang good. Because the world is saturated with good people and good places. With things to see and learn and do. And because my heart is leading me to which ones work for me now. And with time, during rain and shine, moments of soul feeling and heart break, my heart will eventually find its way.

And for that fate. In nothing more than the universe and my heart. I am so grateful. For the confidence in this life.

And if nothing else, I hope you can find that confidence somewhere, cause oh does it feel good.