I grew up as the kid who would cry when I had two friends houses to go to and couldn't decide which one. I would cry if I was missing out on being with anybody. I had to be around people 24/7. I was the social butterfly who after every parent teacher conference had to be told again and again to stop talking in class. I was the kid who wanted to be everywhere and always wanted friends over and would fight til I could find someone to hang out with and was always always always talking on the phone.
Sometimes.. my friends call my Grandma.
Dont get me wrong, I still LOVE being around people. I love socializing. I love going out. I love every second I get with my friends.
But.. I also LOVE me time. I love being productive, doing errands, getting homework done, organizing my room, swimming/running by myself and gathering my thoughts in the process.
I even like being a hermit crab sometimes. Like tonight... I took a shower and got in my pajamas at 8:00, fully planning to spend the night in my room.. being a hermit. Or like this last week when I got the best news I could ask for and I ignored phone calls and didn't call back fast enough. I needed to process. I needed some me time. I needed peace and quiet.
I have learned to LOVE peace and quiet. I love staying in some nights when everybody else goes out. And I love that this weekend was a perfect mix of friends and fun and quiet and me time. Of errands and hanging out, of organizing, doing homework, swimming. Of star gazing quietly, of doing things on my time.
So... if your one of the people that I sometimes forget to call back. Know that it is nothing personal.. its just me being a hermit for a while. Processing, basking in the amazingness that is life, and preparing for the next big social endeavor. Cause the balance of the two= PERFECT.
Life is so precious. And sometimes it turns into a rat race of running from one thing to another, of giving so much, of running your battery low... so much so that you don't enjoy it as much, or you at least forget to enjoy it for a while. I think its important to process. To listen to your thoughts and your heart. To listen to the world or to nothing. And find peace inside... even in the chaos of life.
Let yourself catch up. With your thoughts or your homework or your reading or your sleep. Remember to take care of you, be a little selfish, be content with you. I have learned the importance of understanding myself, of taking care of myself and it makes life so full and juicy and overwhlemingly suculent. And I know there will be times in my life when other responsibilities will nag at my ability to hermit.. so for now. I will take full advantage of it.
Turn off your phone. Close facebook. Lock your door or go for a run away from it all. Spend some you time. I dare you
<3 xoxoxo
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