I got an email about the service they are holding for Ms.Oaks this weekend and it took everything I have to not start bawling. I want to be there so bad, for her, for her family, for all of SHS, and for me. I remember the last day of class, she told us how much she has enjoyed having us and how much we have helped to make her life better and how we have fueled her passion. Does she know how much she gave to us? Does she know how she completely changed our lives, through her presence, how her teaching changed our view of literature, and education in general, and how her compassion made our hearts bigger and more able to give. We were so lucky to have a year with her and even just to have her around the other years we didn't have her and that other people around us had her. My heart breaks for her kids, who will be absolutely wonderful people because of their time with her. But they deserve to have her forever. Sigh, Keely says "I hate cancer"...seriously its terrible. So, since I cant be at the service, that I would give so much to be at, I will be thinking of you Ms.Oaks, and of all of you that are too feeling this loss, of her family, her kids especially, and of the world she blessed with her presence and that will miss her so dearly. Sigh
Its hard to just move onto a new subject after that but...
Susan sent me a picture of my car covered in snow today, and somehow it made me miss home sooo much. I love it here and it is everything I was hoping for, but the comfort of that snow, even my car, that world, all came rushing back and somehow maybe it seemed real. Oh Leadville, I love that place. I told Tiff I missed home and she goes "its ok youll be home in 47 days!" haha, i love her. And seriously I am so excited to be home. Not because I dont wanna be here, but because its home, and the comfort of being back there makes my heart warm, like everything will just be what it always has been and just comfortable, and enough of a reminder that that will always be there for me to keep keepin on here, and lovin this world and that world mutually. I cant wait to see everyone, and sleep in my big bad, and everything. Its gonna be FANTASTIC!!! I CANT FREAKIN WAITTTT!!!!
K finally, back to here. Im doing swim club, cause Lauren talked me into it. And its sooo hard, but sooo good for me. And enjoyable. We started a volleyball team too and our games started Sunday, its just a bunch of fun people so it should be super fun. Im so cozy here, in my bed, in my room, in this world. It feels like home, in a weird different kinda way. Spending the weekend in San Fran was awesome, its sweet that its so accessible, and my brother is there and I can just see him that easily. I love it. Literally everyday I walk around still just in awe at the fact that I am here and it is as amazing as it is. The way it all fell into place just makes it all that much better. And its freakin fantastic. My classes are getting so interesting, like I just wanna listen to what the professor has to say because it makes me think, they are getting a little more difficult..but, what can you expect? There is so much going on, so many awesome opportunities all around me. I love it. And am continuously excited, for everyday.
Actually there is more, I talked to Scotty today forever. And we were talking about our RYLA world, and how its such a different world then our other worlds and how we just want it to all be back together. First of all Scotty is fantastic. But...pretty much the point is we all need to do what were doing, then end up all in the same place, in one big house, or just the same neighborhood, so we can be together all the time. Oh RYLA, i miss you. Its fun to know we will all be back there, and have another run at the amazingness.
Im one lucky girl. This is pretty much about all these great people and things in my life. That have gotten me here, and will get me through the rest of life. I love it, I need to remember it everyday, every minute. Cause its great :)
No comments:
Post a Comment