Driving to Santa Cruz, in the back of the car with Hayley, Keely and Stella, jammin Nsync, Birthday Sex, I Love College, ya know all the necessities I looked out the window and screamed. There were stars! A huge black sky filled with millions and millions of stars. Something in my heart clicked and I couldn't stop staring at them. I haven't seen stars since I've been here, the light pollution pretty much completely eliminates them, and seeing stars brought me home and to so many memories of star gazing and just constantly admiring how beautiful the sky is. Night after night we'd be walking from the cars to the house and with nothing but "look at the sky" the world stopped, every night when I stopped to look at the stars it seemed like nothing else mattered, like the world would find its way, sometimes the only other thing that mattered was you, and that was such an amazing feeling. When things were so hard at home I'd fall asleep with the blinds up so I could watch the stars, it felt like no matter what was happening I could hold onto the stars, they would always be there to aid me in thinking or more importantly not thinking. Something about that, makes my heart soar, and when I noticed they were there again my whole world seemed to feel a little closer to home, a little more in love with life, not that I wasn't already thoroughly enjoying belting out our most recent jams :). The stars are not just in Colorado, or just in Santa Cruz California, or just from the top of my roof, or from the trees where your house is, the stars are everywhere, maybe you cant always see them but they are there. You can always share them with anybody no matter how far away they are, the stars are like a different kind of sunshine.
We went and had pizza and I asked where the honey is, the table of California kids and of course our token Nebraska looked at me like I was freakin speaking Chinese...they dont put honey on their pizza crust in this lovely cultured state. What the hell is that about? Its funny how you think your ways are the ways of the world, and then slowly, in a new world you see that things are just a little bit different, and we can teach each other. Steezy or chauch or polin...they mean the same but I've never heard the last two, they've never heard steezy, thats like a staple of the Colorado lingo these days. Q'doba, Village Inn, nope they dont have those here, no Smiling Moose either. Obviously those are all unimportant, and mostly the differences are, just little things that you just think everyone has, but the custom of putting honey on the crust, the best part of the pizza is part of our Colorado culture, and not of theirs. Its more of a big picture thing, my way is not the only way...there are so many different little pieces of life all over the country, the world, everywhere, its amazing, I wanna learn it all, and I want them to try some damn honey on their crust :)
After some fun at the beach, dipping our toes in, building sand castles, dancing and being crazy we went to the campus and spent the night just exploring, we went on a merri go round, star gazed on top of a building, on top of this crazy sgwiggle (how the heck you spell that i have no idea) and went into some sweet, sticky and muddy caves. There were trees everywhere, some deer and no matter when I looked up the stars were still there, it felt like home, and the adventure felt like a colorado adventure too, it was fantastic. :) We went to bed at 4 in the morning, I dreamt about skiing and woke up at 11 realizing I really needed to be on the bus in town at 11:40, I didnt make it so I spent an hour at the bus stop talking to my best friend and playing papi jump.
Then...we went to Jimmy Buffet. Really it was this concert called the Bridge School Benefit, Jimmy Buffet was just one of the bigger names. Sheryl Crow, Chris Martin from Coldplay, No Doubt, Monsters of Folk and Neil Young were some of the other ones. Sheryl Crow was the first that really got me going. She only played a few songs but she sat on a bench and sang to us, she seemed so real. Her lyrics got to my heart, like a lot. She talked about life " No one said it would be easy, no one said it'd be this hard, no one thought we'd come this far" thats so my life, and so everybody's life, and its nice when people can get into your world, thats how you fall in love with music, cause it fits. She talked about love...letting go, not holding on, so many things. Then she finished with "I'm gonna soak up the sun, I'm gonna tell everyone to lighten up" listen to the lyrics of all these songs sometime, they are amazing. And soaking up the sun, looking up, those are the lyrics to my life, seriously that is what I live by, it was amazing. Then Jimmy Buffet came on, and he's just great. His smile is so warm and his music is so beachy and the words are so much a part of a culture, he is like a culture of relaxin on the beach and enjoying the world, its fantastic. Of course Jes and I know all the words and are jammin like crazy, it was fantastic, I cant wait to go to a real Jimmy Buffet concert. Chris Martin from Coldplay was my other favorite, he was great.
It was just a great night all around, sitting in the lawn listening to great music with my favorite person, we talked all night, about everything. Life til here, what I'm gonna do with my life, how amazing the now is, so many things. My brother is the most amazing person on earth, and I seriously would be absolutely nothing without him. And I live 45 mins away from him, and I can hang out with him all the time. Its amazing.
It was a really great weekend, I felt a lot of good stuff and thought about a lot of good stuff. I really am in love with this life. And in 4 weeks Ill be home to share it with the people who got me here, and I am so excited for that. I have midterms this week, and an unbelievable amount of work to do today... so its library time, but at least I can have this amazing weekend to motivate me :)
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