loads and loads of thoughts :)

hellooo... i have a lot of thoughts, or i did yesterday but of course when i have them i dont have time or energy to write, then when i do im less thoughtful..


we went to the yurt saturday- monday. it was fantastic, as always.  its just an amazing unique wonderful thing. its absolutely beautiful and its with the people i went to day care with.  we sled and play in the snow and cook together and eat together and its a complete blast. your practically on top of the world and the starts are amazing and the views of the snow covered mountains and blue sky are sooo beautiful.  chels and i take forever to hike up and thoroughly enjoy each others company and pick up right where we left off. its great. it was a lot of ese and shell time which was fantastic :). i love that, i love that i live in a place where you can do that and where i am still best friends with the people i went to day care with and get to go sledding with the people i learned to sled with and relive so many memories together. its great :)


i came down from the yurt and went straight to denver where a bunch of the ryla fam met at cinzettis to all see/congratulate scotty. it was fantastic and sooo much love and happiness then a bunch of us went to mikaila's which was equally wonderful. i love them so much seriously they are my life life. and everytime after i leave i feel the post ryla blues.  but its sooo worth it. bah i cant even put it into words its just absolutely wonderful and i am sooooo freaking unbelieveably lucky to be a part of that and have a family of the most amazing people in the world :)


driving home after left my thoughts going crazy.  between the yurt/ryla get together and then talking about new years plans with liv and realizing im going home? back to school in 4 days I started thinking about all my different worlds. And how Im at a place in my life where i can totally pick and choose who I want to spend my time with and kinda filter out people, that sounds horrible but it really just means I get to find the people who really matter. and im freaking lucky to say there are a lot of them. and i absolutely love that. i love that being home i have been able to see bunches of different people and spend time with different people and keep learning from them and just living with them. its fantastic. i just feel like i've got to experience a lot and meet a lot of great people and i love living with them in my life day after day and enjoying so many things with them... and i also know there are lots more to come :)


so..im going back to the clara in 4 days. its crazy that ive almost been home for 3 weeks. in some ways i feel like ive been here forever and in lots of ways it feels like it totally flew by.  this is the longest time ive had without any responsibility (school/job) in sooo long and I freaking loved it. I got to spend sooo much time with the amazing people in my world and just do me things, i love that.  I have soaked up every minute of this beautiful little mountain town with the freshest air and bluest skies and prettiest starts and i freaking love that too. i have really enjoyed home sooo much and its a little sad to leave. ill miss my best friends, my mom, the snow, the mountains, the fresh air, going skiing, bundling up, the fireplace, my bed, the mountain culture, my doggies, no homework, fresh cooked food, my bed, my car...which allows me to go and live and explore, this town sooo much just the feel of the mountains and the beauty of it all and again most of all the people. its weird coming and going and kinda figuring out whats home and wondering when ill be back and learning how to make it all fit. but i still love every minute of it.
while there are things ill miss and it will be hard to leave im sooo excited to be back in that other world that i love so dearly. i cant freaking waitttt to be back with my roomie, i miss waking up to her and just having our little mixed life, keely, hayley, lauren, alex, stephen, mark, ryan, everyone on floor two, BERKELY and soo many other people, im excited for the palm trees, the california lifestyle, new classes and more learning and growing, more adventures, getting all dressed up and having such fun weekends, the library, the gym, some sunshine, that life and alll that it has to offer oh and drum roll please.... SCOTTY being an hour away..wooo hoo, i love that. :)
i say this over and over and over, but i freaking love that i have two worlds, two homes, and so many more that i just love and enjoy and am excited for on both ends, im really lucky


so since im going back again i have some thoughts...goals for 2nd quarter of freshmen year
straight a's again :)
more community service, especially with the kiddos
fitness classes
meet more people in my classes and wherever else
explore a little more, be outside, go places, see things
GET A JOB
study hard
keep in touch with people who matter...skype and phone calls :)
sends lots of letters 
eat healthy and a million times less snacks
manage my time
but still enjoy it
sit down with father engh and the provost to thank them more
skiiiii at tahoe :)
continue to love every second of it and soak it all up 
and soo much more


i have more thoughts as always, but this does justice for a lot of them
i skiied with ese, sami and zachy today. it was ese's first time on skis so i just stayed back with her as she got comfortable again. it was great. she is coming to cali for my birthday and im so freaking excited and so lucky to have her as my best friend. she reads me when i cant, explains my thoughts and emotions when i cant and knows me inside and out, plus i can be completely and totally me with her, every kind of me and love every minute of it and laugh the hardest :) its freaking wonderful.
then i hung out with the maddex cousins (erin shannon sean) that was fun too, we just played and laughed and enjoyed each other, playing on photo booth we had a classic moment
erin "lets be angels"
me "how do we do that"
hahahah everyone started cracking up and we just imagined grandma rolling up there after all the times she told us to act like angels :), it was fantastic.


tomorrow is new years eve. who the heck knows what we're doing. molly and i are ancy, not really into the summit high school party scene and looking for something a little new and different, we'll see what we find. crazy it's 2010...there will be lots of thoughts coming.


3 days left, i hope i can fit enough in and enjoy it, its weird how it just creeps up on you all of a sudden.