paso a paso

paso a paso
step by step

this life seems to know how it is supposed to go
sometimes in the middle i cant see it
but then i look back and it all makes sense

people who get that are people who fill my soul
and there are so many in this world

life isnt supposed to be easy or perfect or even feel like it makes sense in the moment
but when i look back, it makes more sense than I can even understand.

and day after day i have conversations
with beautiful people
who have taken more steps than I
and each day, the steps make more sense to them

cause somehow... it all comes together.

there is not a moment of all put together perfection
there are strings of moments of beautiful
held together by moments of confusing
but without any of the steps... we would be a fallen necklace
beads strung across a dirty floor, some lost, never to be put together perfectly again

my mama gave little michelle so much life
spoiled me in an effort to make up for the challenges she didnt want me to see
then when i was old enough, life came back to remind me.
i opened my eyes wide
looked through tears, was lifted by loves
fell and got back up again
and found my way to this place

where gratitude makes the most sense
beauty and happiness surround me
and day by day i am taught to connect these worlds

i have been taking steps
mostly little ones
and sometimes i leap, with the support of beautiful people and conversations

i think about where i have been and where i am going
how i will take it with me

i step towards more sureness, growth, curiosity
towards people that lead me in the right direction
sccap, beautiful friends, moments of utter unsureness
those are all what lead me to confidence
courage, el salvador
a life that will only continue to lead me, paso a paso

faith in these steps gets me so far
home this summer sits funny in my head
but i know, time alone with myself
and the place where so much shaping happened
through lenses that have been wiped off again and again
will help to glue the pieces together

i will work again at connecting the dots
polishing, spinning and revealing some of the duller beads
or ones i wasnt always sure i liked

but when i think long and hard
i like every single one
cause without one, there would not be another...

paso a paso
xoxoxo