I just spent the last two days with Kelsey and it was absolutely amazing. I am EXHAUSTED and the lovely gardners decided to weed whack outside my window bright and early this morning (it wasnt that early, i had already been up studying and then went back to sleep haha, but it didnt sit well with me) But exhausted does not even matter
It was absolutely out of this world wonderful to have her here, like I can't even put it into words. She wasn't even here for a full two days but we fit in SO much talking and laughing and loving and seeing. Sunday we laid in the grass and talked life and explored campus and made sense of each others heads, or maybe she just made sense of mine :) We watched the most bizarre movie I have ever seen and then talked more til we both drifted off. Yesterday we adventured to Santa Cruz, it was 72 degrees out, we wore summer dresses and played in the water and got a little red and it was sooo wonderful. We had so much fun. And laughed so hard, and talked about so much life and how we want to live and the things that are important to us, and she reminded me of the me who is the best me. Thats what RYLA does for you, brings out the best you. We talked about loving people for all their good, and learning to do something else with the little things that get to you other than be frustrated, we talked a lot about letting go, and living in a way that we love so much and take all of life in. We talked about being so fortunate, and taking care of us, and exploring, and giving, and the yellow RYLA house we are gonna have on the beach for summer trips together where the walls will be covered with pictures and words of focus and song lyrics and it will be so full of love. I had tears streaming down my face watching her try to pick a lemon with a scarf cause she couldn't reach it. It was perfect, and it reminded me of how fortunate I am, I have THE most AMAZING people in my life to make me better, and remind me of the things that matter, and model the best ways to live for me. It is really amazing, I have a really great life.
RYLA has taught me how to live, has reminded me of some of my most cherished values, of the things in relationships that matter most, and as a reminder to me, some of the things that I want to remember every day, every second to be, to exude are
-love, love for life and love for the people around me
-openness
-genuineness
-honesty, not only with others but with myself
-loyalty and consistency- i want to put off to every single person in my life the values that matter, i dont want to be less caring and gentle with my mom than i am with my friends or less
-loving people for all the good that they are
-giving
-passionate
-understanding
and so so so much more. Kels makes me better and inspires me. She loves and gives to no end and it is so spectacular. All of the RYLA fam makes me want to be better and I feel so incredibly lucky to have them in my life :)
Its also finals week, and I am exhausted from fitting as much in while she was here plus getting up early to study and spending hours in the library before she was here so I didnt have to study the whole time she was here. I'm a little brain dead. One down two more to go..spanish and ethics, the ones I need to do well on so I can get an A. I'm trying to study harder and more and in different ways. And also to SLOW DOWN on tests because I make stupid mistakes cause I fly.
I'm also trying to make the most out of my days and get up early and take in the sunshine and swim a lot and just experience so much wonderful life.
Spring break is SO soon and I am so excited. :) It is gonna be amazing
I'm really lucky, thats really all there is to it
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