So, I'm sitting here, Stella is cleaning/packing I'm cleaning/packing/updating music and thinking as always. We are done with our 2nd quarter of freshmen year, and seriously I dunno how it happened so fast. I feel like this one was even faster than last quarter. And was full of a TON of learning. Seriously I feel like I am learning so much about myself and the world and friendships and life and I also take comfort in knowing there is still so so so so much more out there to learn. Cause I know I will never have it figured out, and there is not a minute ever where I feel like its all figured out, so its nice knowing that I will keep learning.
I have learned about being honest with myself, and taking care of me, and living as a loving genuine, consistent person, and also a lot about self reflecting and learning how to live and be so close to people who are so new.
Last night Keely and Hayley and I stayed til the wee hours of the morning talking about life. Where we've been, where we are now and everything in between. And most importantly how relative it all is, and how different it all is, and how now we bring it together, into one world, one life, and so much new, where we have to figure out what we do with it. And its really exciting and scary and fun and hard, but its so life, and we like that. We talked about how fortunate we are. That is such a common theme in my life. SO fortunate. It was fantastic, they are great, life is great, and I have so SO SO SO SO many amazing people to help me as I learn so much and hit ups and downs and spin in circles a few times :)
I'm still feelin the effects of having Kels here. We talked so much, and after she got home today we both talked about bringing new light to each other, and making each other see somethings in a whole new way. Seriously she reminded me of the best person I can be, she brought some ideas into my head of how to live and be and love better, and Im so happy she did. So now, I really wanna live that way, I really wanna be a consistently and genuinely loving and caring person who exudes joy and a passion for life. Cause thats who I am with Kels and on the days when the sun is shinin so bright but sometimes I get caught up in life, caught up relationships that are not RYLA relationships, living every second with people, being too far away, differences, being too close to my mother. I want to be that person with all the people in my life all the time. And obviously i will have my moments and my days...i am human, but I wanna try really hard to be aware of what I'm putting off, and to be the person I know I am.
I also had a super talk with Mr Scotty Nickles today, and feel really awesome to have some stuff make more sense. He helped, he gets my head, he understands me more than I do sometimes, and he was like HELLO wake up, you are you stop being a freak :) so that was awesome
Um SPRING BREAK is now. All this time we have been counting down, now we are packing, leaving in the morning and SO excited! I seriously cannot wait! I am so excited for sunshine, relaxing on the beach, sleeping in, lazy mornings with breakfast on the porch, SO much laughing, awesome amazing out of this world friends, good food, driving with the windows down and the music blaring and so much life and love and adventures and fun and new to take in :) YAY!
I cannnot believe this quarter is over. And Im super excited for next quarter and to come back feeling refreshed. New classes, new adventures, and lots of awesome that is already here. AND SO MUCH SUNSHINE (its been 70-80 degrees all week!)
Heres to a really fun break and an awesome 2nd quarter and SO much good life and SO many wonderful people in my world :) And another quarter of wonderfulness :) Happy springish/summer feeling time!
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