ready, set, GO!

last time i said that one of my favorite things to do is blog, or sometime i said that.
but one of my more favorite things to do is read other people's blogs, especially Mei Ratz's blog. She inspires me so much, so so much. To look inside me and learn and outside me and learn more and to love and live and smile and enjoy life sooo much, she understands a lot and sees things so amazingly. I love things that inspire me.


Its "dead week"..the idea is that we just have no work so we can study for finals. Some teachers listen, some don't at all, but somehow it still does not feel like a nice fun week. It feels gross and stressful and hard to motivate. But its ok, we are trying to motivate. We stopped for a game of EXTREMELY competitive catch phrase tonight against a couple other floors for our buildings olympics and it was SO FUN and quite refreshing and got me REALLY fired up. Now I kinda want to motivate but i kinda wanna go play some really crazy fun sport, I miss team sports.


My roomate who I love so dearly drew me a pretty picture mocking the things in our lives that seem to give us the most problems.  It made me laugh and made me realize there is a whole half a species having these same problems, or something like that :)


My wednesdays are CRAZY and today was the end of that craziness. Today was my last day at Rocketship (the elementary school I go to once a week to help the kiddos read for my Soc class) and the one boy I spent the most time with made me so sad.  They just could not understand why we weren't coming back. And I dont blame them, what right do we have to just come in and help them and leave out of the blue. I feel bad :( and I wish i could keep in touch somehow. I always think its the craziest things how some people just come in and out of your life so quickly and still have such an affect but then they are just gone.  I have always wanted to do the big brother/big sister program and I looked into it last night cause now that I'm 18 and out of Leadville (where there is nothing) I actually can apply.  I think you have to have a car so I'll have to call about that but I REALLY REALLY wanna do it, thats a long lasting effective relationship, and as much as one time or one month or one year things are awesome, i need a little balance of staying in people's lives and being there for them forever. So hopefully I can figure that out soon :)


Kelsey is coming this weekend.  Her spring break is during my finals so she is just gonna be here for a couple days but i am sooo excited. So excited to have her huge heart here to share with and play with and love life with. I miss her like crazy and we all get so caught up in the chaos of everyday life that we never have time for more than "miss you love you hope things are well" and even though two days is too short its at least more, more time for us to feel and talk and just be together. oh man i cant wait!


Then its Spring Break and I really cannot wait for that


And then Im thinking about going home for Easter weekend, since I go to a Catholic school we have a three day weekend and I miss the mountains and the fresh air and the blue sky and stars. So I think Im gonna go home and its gonna be weird and short and nobody will really be there but I think I'll take full advantage of that and play outside a little and just be there with myself and my mom and the blue sky. And away from the sirens, I get a little sick of hearing them all the time, its not like that at home. It will be really nice :)


There is a little funk around here. Final stress. Lots of girl. I dunno just life. But there are so many good things to hold onto. And so many outlets to get rid of the funk. and i am SO excited for everything other than finals. But I gotta get through those to get there, so this is me motivating myself. I need to do well on a couple of them. Gym time, then some more homework. Ready, set, GO