So I kept trying to write about winter quarter ending, spring quarter starting. But I couldn't quite find the words to express how I was feeling. It kept just being a bunch of mumble jumble about life going to fast, and so much happening freshmen year. And it might still be that. But i just read Stella's blog. And it got me. She too was trying to find words to bid farewell to winter quarter and she too is a sentimental mush ball if you catch her at the right time. She caught me at the right time. Today has been a bit of a rough day, and her words got me.
"Freshmen year has been so so good to me" she says, man has it been good to us. It has been absolutely amazing. A roller coaster of learning and laughing and some tears here and there and meshing together. We are so different, but we live in this little space together and we laugh and we cry and we spill our hearts to each other, and we've figured it out. We've made our differences work and meshed some but also just loved each other for being so different. And we laugh at each other and also ponder life together. We feel things together. I feel like she has become like a sister. And for that and so many other things I am so lucky.
Then she talked about geography. All of our different places. Nebraska, Colorado, San Jose, San Diego, the list goes on. I drew her a map last night because she tells me Californian's only know California and New York and I told her if she learns anything from me she will learn where Colorado is, and a few other important states. I taped it to the mirror, cause the fashionista loves that mirror. Gotta love it :) But really the point is, we have come from all these different places, together and we have meshed. But we are scared of summer, when we will go back to our places, and be far away and how we will deal with that. And of forever when that happens. I am already far away from the people who brought me here, and it's ok. The relationships that matter don't mind distance, and distance only makes them stronger and makes you appreciate each other more. And, when you have friends far away you get to experience new things together, and see new places, and broaden your horizons. And it scares me that as we get older we will be farther apart for longer, but I trust in the relationships that can out live the distance. The relationships where it's ok if you don't talk for a while cause your busy, and the times you do talk are that much more special, the relationships where you are so excited to show people your world, and hug people so hard after you've been away for a long time. Those are awesome relationships, and we are building them here. That is the best thing about life, about new places, about new years: new relationships. I honestly feel like I have been so incredibly lucky in that department and have so many friendships that I cherish so much. And these relationships I cherish so much, and they will last even when we are far apart, Stella- forever and for always we will be close, we will mesh our different worlds and we will experience life together, and I am so excited that we might get to live together next year :) i love you!
I'm going home this weekend, to celebrate some of those awesome relationships. To see my mommy and my mountains. And Tiff and Elyse and Liv and Molly and Kali and Mindy and Kam and Britt and Susan and Jim. Home for three days and I get to see all those people and maybe more. Lucky I tell you, so so lucky.
I cant believe spring quarter is starting. I need a few days to get into the swing of things, spring break was also so good to me, my head may still be on the beach, listening to the ocean. Oops ;)
Its funny how we all have meshed. Hayley said the other day "we are all meshing into each other" and we are totally picking up on each others habits. We all have come to like the same food, wear similar clothes, say similar things, like similar music and have similar hobbies. Obviously forever we will have our differences but its fun to pick up other people's pieces of life, and share life as much as you do when you all live together. Hayley and I had a big long talk about life last night, again :) And it was great. College means for SO much learning and awareness and thinking and evaluating, and its really awesome to have some great friends to evaluate life with and then to also be crazy and roll on the floor laughing with.
I'm ready for all sorts of more fun. And new classes to stretch my mind. And adventures to new places. And fun weekends and silly inside jokes, and more big long life talks and more life. I love love love the feeling of constantly being excited for life, cause its SO exciting.
So here's to spring quarter, even better than the last two :)
Um they are talking about there being attractive boys all over campus, they come out in the spring ;), we'll take it lol. And Hayley is wearing a corn on the cob hat. Oh college, gotta love it.
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