Happy May 19th

happy may 19th.


I woke up to a beautiful day and went for a wonderful swim
I talked to Liv on the phone and went over all the things that we had been behind on. 
Then I had a meeting with a woman who made me really really excited. She is in charge of the undergrad pre teaching major and they are trying to get a new track approved that is EXACTLY what I want. Not a maybe that would work or that could be cool or somehow it will relate a THAT IS PERFECT AND EMBODIES EVERYTHING THAT SOUNDS GOOD TO ME! Some education, some policy, child development, community leadership and advocacy. Thats the best way I know how to explain it but she showed me the course checklist and it is awesome. Keep your fingers crossed that it gets approved for next year.


I ate delicious sushi with Lauren.
Celebrated twin day, learned about plants, solved kindergarten drama, and took in the moments of faces lighting up about life at LUCHA.
Did too much homework.
Had mango ice cream and SCCAP talk.
And just acted like a little kid with my most favorite and go to childish actions rockstar Hayley.


She's my favorite. And my peace of mind and so much more. There is some immaturity around here, some drama, some attention needing, some girlness, some regular life, and lots of other somethings.
But through it all Hayley and I can hold onto each other for reason and venting and talks about passion and laughter that makes my stomach and my cheeks hurt and my life longer. Wooo. 


Last night we talked about life, just like almost every other night.  We talked about passion. A lot about passion.  About finding passion, about sharing passion, and loving people who have passion.
I feel like senior year I learned a lot.  And found a faith in life that helps me hold onto the good and understand that things work out, really they do, I dont know how or why or when or in what order, but I really believe somehow, eventually they do.  And after finding a faith in life. Trusting that I can go for the ride, letting go a little and worrying about me instead of life not working out, I started to find some things that make me soar, that make my soul bigger. I started to find passion. And I am not letting go of it for as long as I live. Passion makes life go, makes it pure and exciting and full. Finding other people with passion make that excitement even better, life even more bright and juicy and exhilarating. Its fantastic.


Last night I watched a teenage boy with autism play the piano in a way that I could not even comprehend.  All with his fingers, he watched the audience, the paintings on the wall, the thoughts in his head, and he played music like an absolute star. It was amazing, had the whole room grinning ear to ear. It was a celebration of ability. So much ability, so much more than what these people who turned out a little different are defined by. Sunshine, ability, passion...its all in the same category.


I am craving the mountain air. The stars. The best friends. Home cooked food. Fresh fruit and vegetables. My own space. My own time. The feel of summer. Ya know that life, that feels far away, which is weird, and is getting closer. 


School is crazy busy til the end, I have such mixed emotions about this year ending but I do miss home. And there are things about this summer that will be great, some that will be hard, and others that hold something unknown, to be explored and navigated and figured out. 


Goodnight. Cheers to May 19th. And every other day. Cheers to busy days. Best Friends. Passion. Excitement. 


Cheers to life