I think I can I think I can I think I can

It is the middle of week 9. WEEK 9!!!!! Do you know what that means? I will be done with my freshmen year in a week and a half. That is crazy talk, and my brain does not have the capacity to talk about it til it comes, but oh will there be talk.


I cannot even really think about summer yet because I am completely swamped with work. SO. MUCH. WORK. I have been in the library practically every day, my sense of time is completely off, and I have been having anxiety dreams. Stressed much?


I'll totally make it. But I have so many papers. Projects. Tests. And it always seems to be the end of the quarter when college really catches up with you. When all the teachers want to see what you have learned and your grade rests on these HUGE assignments. Stressful.


I am currently writing a paper about homosexuals in media, one about avatar, one about my trip to Buenos Aires (in spanish) and one about if Acupuncture actually works. Simultaneously. WOWZERS. So my head is totally jumping in a million different directions. And time management skills are being put to the serious test. 


Also, I figured out at least part of my sleeping problem.  Not figured out but figured out why it happens. If some sort of change is coming my mind goes crazy.  Right now its the change of going home. Sunday and Monday nights I maybe slept three hours, last night I had consecutive stressful or frustrating dreams for what seems like all night...and woke up so stressed. 


I AM SO READY FOR SUMMER.


Its ok though. I just needed to get that out. I'm getting by. With country music...which has been just lighting up my soul lately. I don't listen to it that much anymore cause none of my friends here are into it so I think thats why its been even better lately. LOVE IT


And swimming/other forms of exercise/but mainly swimming. I love it. I forget everything when Im in the pool. I focus on my breathing and my arms moving, and how many laps I've swam. No homework, no stress, no worries/excitement of going home. Just me and the water. Again, LOVE IT


We started packing a little the other night. And almost cried. Thats gonna be a really interesting thing to deal with. I leave two weeks from tomorrow. I cant even believe it.


But I am ready to be home with my best friends, I'm ready for star gazing, hiking biking running swimming, mountain air, late nights, jammin with the windows down, camping, making money, adventures, lazy days, homemade food, breakfast, fruit, and the feel of summer. Its gonna be a good one, even if letting go of this amazing year is something I can quite wrap my mind around.