snow??????

good morning. happy summer. ITS SNOWING OUTSIDE!!! AHHHH
seriously snow? its june 14th and I know this happens here but I still REALLY hate it. UGH! I would really love to be back in the California sun, or even better bring me the sun to Leadville :). Its hard to feel like summer and motivate to do much of anything when its snowing outside. You just wanna curl up and be lazy as can be. So I think Ill go to Zachys and do that.


Im home for the summer. And it so doenst feel real. Feels like I'll be back at school in just a couple days. I wonder if I'll ever actually realize that I am here for three months.  It feels really good though. The fresh air, blue sky, big comfy bed, silence, mom making me meals, best friends, my car, home...so many things feel wonderful.


And it has started out so perfectly.
Liv and Steph picked me up and we laughed and were crazy and talked all about life
Ese and Zachy and I sat on the couch and made egg in the holes at 10pm
We went to the grill, made smores, talked about crazy things with Craigy
Saturday we had a Young RYLA get together...wonderful wonderful wonderful as always. The new team is out of this world. And of course it was so so great to see and catch up with the returners while learning all about the newbies. I drove with Rolo which was wonderful to have so much time to catch up. I LOVE RYLA...did you know? :)
Saturday night I came home and hung with the summit crew. We laughed so much and it was absolutely wonderful.
Yesterday I finally got home and relaxed a little. Started on my room. Slept so well in my own bed. And had a little bit of a chance to think about life.
But still I dont really wanna think about it, or know what to think about it.


I miss that world. I miss my girls. Even the goofy boys, the wake up swig at 2 in the morning, the late night talks with my hayley, laughing so hard we cry, jamming to all the songs that have come to define freshmen year. Such a wonderful, out of this world year. I miss the sunshine. The swimming pool. My roomie. Always having someone around. Lauren blessing my soul.  Room 214. I miss it so much. Like a lot a lot. And its only the beginning of the summer.


But its ok. Life is so good. There and here. Its weird how its like two separate lives. I wish I knew how to connect them. And I do, I'm bringing back all that I learned to here. But its weird how different they are. I still have so much I need to talk about this year. How perfect it was. But sometimes NOT thinking about it all makes it that much easier.


But here is good. If only the snow would go away. Ill be back. Still not quite in blogging, thinking, emotional mode. Eventually though. :)


XOXOXO
Do a sun dance for us, we really need it :)