for katie...and for sean...and all those who feel this

Last night I opened my email and had a short message from Katie "I need you more then anything..." her uncle who has been battling cancer passed away Saturday morning. She is very very close to her uncle and aunt and their kids and spent time out there this summer (a lot of time) helping with the kids and such as Laura and Sean worked at keeping him healthy. There were ups and downs, times when they felt there was a miracle on the horizon, and times when nobody knew exactly what would happen. Sean lived much longer then expected, and through my numerous conversations with Katie, and more recent frequent visits to the website dedicated to Sean and keeping the world updated on his struggle, Sean was an absolutely amazing man. He was an art teacher who students absolutely loved, he had an amazing sense of humor seen in his loving interactions with his kids, sold his own amazing artwork, and so much more. When I got the email I cried for Katie, more then anything my heart broke not being able to be there for her. She said she cant talk on the phone right now, its just too hard to talk about...completely understandable and expected, I wish I could fly home to be with her. She was so emotionally involved in Sean's journey, felt it from so many different angles just as I'm sure so many people involved with Sean and the family did. It's such sad news, crazy how the greatest people are taken from us, sometimes I think there must be some higher power to take people like Eric and Ms.Oaks and Sean, it's not fair, not fair at all, especially to those who are left behind, with the greatest mark on their heart, one that they aren't ready to let go of. Sean touched so many people's life, Katie told me all about it and the guestbook is a total testament to that. I hurt for his wife, for his girls who don't get to have their daddy around for the rest of their life. This struggle of his cancer just became a whole new struggle for the girls and Laura especially, as for everyone else involved. I just hope, that higher power, if he's there can take care of them, or the world, their friends, family, and people on the street who know nothing, I hope they can share smiles and love and memories and continue on in the life Sean lead them and was beside them through. Its crazy how my heart broke hearing the news, how I sat in my room with the door closed crying, at a loss for Katie, a loss for not being able to be there for her. I love you Katie, you will be stronger because of this, you already are, still I wish you didn't have to feel this, i wish nobody ever had to feel the pain of loss. So...think about Katie and Sean and his friends and family, smile at people in the street, maybe they lost someone, be thankful for the people in your world and tell them everyday, cause life is in no way predictable and no way fair. Hang in there love, you'll get through this.