love, so much love

I'm sitting in Borders in Denver. I just spent the afternoon with Britt, my twin from RYLA and I imagine my heart like a blow up ball that has been reinflated. We sat and we just reminisced about RYLA and all its amazingness and all the people and how its changed our lives. God I love that place. We missed everyone, I want so bad for everyone to be together, that is one amazing family. We teared up, just thinking about it, got the chills, laughed so hard thinking about Terry and his wood gathering, and so many things. I miss that place, I cant wait to go back. We talked about how amazingly lucky we are to have been able to go back. As much as going to RYLA as a camper changed my life being a counselor completely turned my life around 180 degrees and is such a big part of me and my world and its absolutely amazing. Wow, it makes my heart flutter. Just that 3 hours with Britt brought it all back, and almost made me just yearn to have it all back more, I cant wait, I cant freaking wait.

I'm going to pick Liv up in a few hours, ahhh Im excited. The past 5 years have been Liv and I doing so much together going through so much life together and being connected at the hip, its been weird being away, i cant freaking wait to be back with her. We are gonna scream and laugh and cry and go crazy. YAYYYY

As if theres not enough going on today. Steph and I went to the highschool today to say hi to people. That was really fun, it was good to see people, and weird to be back there. What a big part of our life that was, so many things happened in that place. Crazy crazy.

I love being home, i have so many places to call home and I seriously couldnt ask for anything better. Everyday I am reminded of how blessed I am. So much love today, Jess and the fam and Zachy will be home tomorrow and Thursday Ese will be here, its all so great. And there is so much love in my life even if it has been a rollercoaster, I have learned so much and have the best support group I could ask for.

We were all talking about if we've changed, I dont think I've changed much, its still me at the core but I feel like I've figured a little bit more out, I've seen more, questioned more, broadened my world more, and will every minute for the rest of my life. I love it. Gosh I love it. It actually kinda freaks me out haha. I miss Scotty, a lot and Jeff comes home tomorrow and that makes me nervous. And Im not censoring that cause its silly. But its all good, so good, and I am a firm believer in the fact that things happen for a reason. So :) I'll just let them happen