home with my steezy

Stella and I are sitting in the room, doing homework, more likely browsing facebook and listening to Norah Jones, we just had a little bit of a cleaning spree. We try to stay clean but it's a small space, and we have a third roomie and every so often it hits one of us, so we both go into cleaning mood. I love the feeling of just being in here with her, the Norah Jones reminds me of mom, our room is ours, nobody elses and when one of us is down, the other notices. We don't spend every minute together but we have a connection like sisters. It'll be weird to go home and not wake up to her and of course Keely. It's funny how this place becomes a home, and you kinda don't notice, it just happens. But this tiny space, our mixed cultures, sometimes obvious other times not are just how I like it. We have asian ramen noodles and pad thai in our fridge, we also have honey nut cheerios and wheat thins, none of it is hers or mine, we just share. It'd be weird to come to college and not have a roomate, not have someone else's life to navigate. She teaches me about her world, fashion, the asian culture, all sorts of things, just her thoughts, no matter where they come from, and I teach her about mine, mostly just through living it, seeing each other's worlds. And our life, more and more every day, becomes a little more one.

Scotty is gone at basic, and skype keeps messing with my head saying he is online. He has become such a shoulder for me, picking me up whenever I'm down, its weird having him gone. I can't even imagine what he is thinking, what he's doing, it's crazy. This is the journey he's been waiting for. I cant wait to hear, Sunday's he can write letters, and read mine, so the weeks with roll by with Sunday's connecting them. With Scotty, and Elyse and Liv and Zachy and everyone else who isn't here, the moon always comforts me, something about how its there and we all see it, we all look at it with similar thoughts, its beauty, its awe, its wonder, I like that, we are all on the same planet and experiencing something similar even though we are so far apart.

Speaking of...Zachy and Ese are coming to see me for my birthday. I invited them not expecting it to work out, then Ese called to say she was coming and I couldn't stop screaming. It's weird not having them know my world, my room, my friends, the things I see every day and I can't wait to show them my world. Not to mention I get to spend my birthday weekend with them, I'm so dang excited I can't wait.

I wish Liv could come too, I think about her so often, we spent so much of our time together, more time with her then probably anyone else in the last 5 years. Our minds just match up, and it's weird not having her to share my thoughts with me, thats why we talk all the time, so we can share our thoughts and worlds and laughs. I cant wait to be home with her, and everyone else. It's gonna be fantastic...17 days!

So...I've been doing a lot of thinking about this major choosing thing. I'm not sure why, actually I am, because I'm leaning towards Sociology and English, and I see how it could be useful all over the place, especially Sociology. I think it's so interesting. And I love english I always have, that would let me teach, and give me a better basis to get into grad school or even law school, really whatever comes my way. I think teaching abroad or in teach for america could be great, and teaching really anywhere could probably be really enjoyable, we'll see what happens, but I've been leaning towards Soc and English for a while now, and like it more and more everyday. Hopefully next years classes can just intensify that feeling. I'm not sure if I should take psych again just to see how it fits, maybe not yet, there are so many other interesting classes, who knows. Picking classes is hard cause there are so many choices, I'll figure it out though.

I hung out with Jes today, and I'm gonna go up there this weekend. I'm really in love with this life. Things have turned out so well. And I have a problem of thinking, I think a lot about the timing of life, and how some things didnt work with timing, but thats life. And I tell myself and other people everyday, somehow its all gonna fall into place, sometimes its just a matter of being patient, or more so of focusing on today, not then or whats coming, its all gonna work out. And its pretty damn good now, so if theres more good to come I'm in luck :)